Selfless Act for Lent

I was thinking "I can't afford to donate, I'm barely making it right now." Then I looked down at my KFC tray and realized I'm just fooling myself. Even if it's just a small donation (like that of a single fast food meal), it all adds up. If you're reading this, even if it's just a dollar, HELP THEM OUT! They are good people with a quality message. :)

Happy Persian New Year!

This past weekend was awesome! I spent it in Panama with someone very special to me. Excellent trip, great food, nice weather. Somehow in 3 days we never found time for any tours. This was one of those weekends where everything was fun but little can be said. ;)

While gone, I received an email informing me that I was not selected for Round 3 of the Charlie Sheen's TigerBloodIntern--yes, I was one of the 74,000 people who applied. LOL.. However, I figured at some point they would check my blog and disqualify me. No big shock.


March 20th was Persian New Year. They celebrate for 13 days.

Some Nowruz celebrants believe that whatever a person does on Nowruz will affect the rest of the year. So, if a person is warm and kind to their relatives, friends and neighbors on Nowruz, then the new year will be a good one. On the other hand, if there are fights and disagreements, the year will be a bad one.As a extended tradition to the holiday, men may or may not choose to shave their faces until the night of the "New Day" as a sign of removal of old habits and tendencies and the rebirth of their faith and being.

The other ancient symbolic representation of NoRuz is based around the idea of the triumph of good over evil. According to the Shah-nameh (The Book of Kings), the national Iranian epic by Ferdowsi, NoRuz came into being during the reign of the mythical King Jamshid; when he defeated the evil demons (divs) seizing their treasures, becoming master of everything but the heavens and bringing prosperity to his people. To reach the heavens, Jamshid ordered a throne to be built with the jewels he had captured. He then sat on the throne and commanded the demons to lift him up into the sky. When the sun's rays hit the throne, the sky was illuminated with a multitude of colours. The people were amazed at the King's power and they showered him with even more jewels and treasures. This day of great celebration was named NoRuz, and was recognised as the first day of the year.

I am still trying to stick by my Lent rules. While I did have 2 Ginger Ales to calm my motion sickness from the tiny plane, I consider that more medicine than soda. Also, yesterday I had a brownie which was almost cake-consistency. I didn't know it would be that way before ordering and I did eat it. Other than these two circumstances, I have stuck by my Lent sacrifices: no masturbation, no soda, no cake. :)

Obama's Nobel Peace Prize Should Be Stripped

The Nobel Peace Prize
“The said interest shall be divided into five equal parts, which shall be apportioned as follows: /- - -/ one part to the person who shall have done the most or the best work for fraternity between nations, the abolition or reduction of standing armies and for the holding and promotion of peace congresses.”
(Excerpt from the will of Alfred Nobel)

In 2009 President Obama was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize "for his extraordinary efforts to strengthen international diplomacy and cooperation between peoples". Based on his continued war efforts, he does not deserve such an honor.

"Libya is not America's war. It is justified neither on security or humanitarian grounds. Nor can Washington, overwhelmed with current deficits and future liabilities, afford to be world's permanent 911 number." From: Americans appear wary over U.S. role in Libya

Every man I like is different

Most people have a set "type" of person who they are attracted to. That doesn't apply to me. Every man I've been with is completely different than every other. With one exception--and he was a combination of everyone I had dated (weird, right?). I like variety.

Since I started attending adult entertainment conventions, I've been physical with only a few men in the industry.

Richard Young - He and I seriously dated for awhile. Not casual at all.

Roy Karch - We have always been good friends and dated briefly.

Jason Quinlan - Since 2005, Jay has been my default go-to guy whenever I've been single. We've never dated and there's no drama; we are fuck buddies--nothing more. Pretty impressive in the sack and always makes me squirt. If you have ever wondered why he gets so much pussy, he DESERVES IT!

someone else who shall remain nameless - I was horny, Jay was unavailable, this man was in town. A random industry hookup--not something I do.

Despite working as a stripper for years, I can be shy when it comes to my personal life. Most of the men I've had mini-crushes on never knew:
(A couple are taken. A few are missed opportunities. Some still make me wonder...)
Huda Mahdi - Absolute gentleman. He is awesome; the type of man one hopes to marry. Of course he lives half a world away and already has an incredibly gorgeous girlfriend. She is a lucky lucky girl.

Mackenzie McAleer - Handsome, intelligent, ex-pat with a zest for life. HOT!

Brad Mitchell - LOL, Brad. Totally the kind of geek I would date. He's been on my Yes list for a long time but, since he's married, I've kept my distance.

Vid Vicious - I have so much respect for this man. One of the few exceptions to my "no casual sex" rule...I would do Vid. Always a complete gentleman.

Charles Michael - We have been flirting for years. He's smart, cute, funny, and a gentleman. I could seriously date him. Too bad he lives in cold Canada.

Kevin Blatt - We have tons in common and mutual interests. With all the hours we used to chat on the phone, yeah, I'm curious...

Halcyon - Back in the day I would've jumped at the opportunity for a threeway with Tassy and Halcyon but never got the chance.

Lance Harrell - Total cutie! We are into a lot of the same things sexually. Unfortunately, we know each other too well to date or play. *sigh*

Dave Urban - So gorgeous that I can barely speak in his presence.

Marc Womack - Had I been single, I probably would've offered up a threeway with him and Shey. He just oozes "good in bed"; so does she.

Christopher Keller and Mike Tompkins - Both are too young for me to pursue, but in masturbation land they are my boy toys.


Do I stay single because of shyness? Not at all. I enjoy being single.
For me to get in a relationship, that person has to be someone I like "as-is".

If I have to change someone, then it won't work (for either of us).
This is why I like to know someone well before we move forward.


It isn't fun being surprised with incompatibilities after it's too late. That said, even the majority of the men on my crush list are not men whom I would actually date.

Lent cleansing

Not only am I not a Christian, I don't believe that Jesus Christ ever existed. So why am I posting about Lent? Lent is a time for spiritual cleansing--which is beneficial no matter what your faith (or lack of).

From Wikipedia: There are traditionally forty days in Lent which are marked by fasting, both from foods and festivities, and by other acts of penance. The three traditional practices to be taken up with renewed vigour during Lent are prayer (justice towards God), fasting (justice towards self), and almsgiving (justice towards neighbour). Today, some people give up a vice of theirs, add something that will bring them closer to God, and often give the time or money spent doing that to charitable purposes or organizations.

What will I do different during Lent?
Lent started this year on March 9; I just heard about it so I am starting today. Daily chanting of my mantra and meditation will be a priority. For the fasting aspect, I am giving up masturbation, soda, and cake. In addition, each day I will do at least one activity to selflessly help others.

As I follow this rule I find that I am letting go of old mortal beliefs and the Divine within is flaming higher and higher. Its pure white light is infusing all my surroundings with a delightful spirit of wisdom, dignity, and peace. I realize more and more the law or righteous thinking that is bringing me into a consciousness of my perfect dominion.

My 40th day will be April 21st.

Self-medicating Millionaires

How much of what we see on the media is real Charlie Sheen and how much is the spin created to make him look crazy? They edit out the normal.



I've never met Charlie but I recognize the path. Even his rants sound familiar.


Charlie Sheen reminds me of a very sweet ex-boyfriend--one of the few men whom I believe truly loved me. Like Charlie, my ex was an extremely successful "winner" who had more than enough money to buy anything he could ever want. Well, *almost* anything. Money can't buy lasting happiness from within.



Sadly, he self-medicated to such an extreme that, in 2005, he died at the young age of 47. A drug test wasn't done but I'm sure he would've had large amounts of cocaine, at least a .2 BAC, Xanax, Cialis, and marijuana in his system (at a minimum). All of his fame and fortune couldn't save him.

If Charlie doesn't start making better choices, I worry that he will end up with the same fate within a year. In my opinion, he hasn't totally lost his mind like Mel Gibson did...but his partying has caused a downward spiral that will be tough to reverse. I hope he is able to heal himself and live to become an even greater man.


There is another possibility that nobody is mentioning -- this could be an intentional marketing ploy.

What would be worth giving up $2 million an episode for? By Charlie Sheen going from being famous to infamous, now EVERYONE talks about him every day; he is on all the tv channels and gossip magazines, has millions of twitter followers, and thousands of people are blogging about him. Brilliant!! If this was a well thought-out deliberate plan to counter the negative Kacey Jordan press then he is even more of a genius than anyone has given him credit for.

GO Trixie Racer GO!

So, almost 8 months after I started trying to get my name back on Twitter I have opened an alternate account. I'm probably a better blogger since I much prefer expressing myself without limitation, so...we'll see how it goes.

Kacey Jordan's betrayal of her client, Charlie Sheen

Charlie liked to hire hookers. On my 22nd birthday I hired my first hooker and have done so many times since, so this makes sense to me. Hiring hookers isn't as much about the sex as it is paying for the woman to leave afterward. Really.
It is paying for fun without any drama. Simple. No late night phone calls, no stalkers, no regrets.

There is a big difference between a private hookup and paid sex.
Paid sex implies discretion.

Kacey Jordan gives hookers everywhere a bad name. As "paid entertainment" she should NOT have went to the media. Charlie Sheen even overpaid her fee several times over. Instead of being appreciative, she's choosing to blab everything to the entire world. Hopefully all of her other clients have taken notice and stopped seeing her. She is a disgrace to the whole industry.

Stifled Voyeur

There is a lady at work who has such a sweet behind that I always catch myself staring at it. In the conservative world this behavior is not okay so I totally have to fight my urges to ogle.

In the adult world I could walk up to her and say:

"Wow! You have an amazing ass!"

And, instead of being sued, slapped, or fired, she would respond back with, "Ahh, thank you sweetie! I love your breasts!"

From there, we may exchange numbers for a later play date. *REMINDER* "I only have casual sex with women"

Over the years a few of my friends have even performed private masturbation shows just for me using their webcams. YEAH BABY! Whether I'm turning around to watch a man's face as I grind on his lap during a dance, surfing porn, or watching a XXX show, being able to see the sexual pleasure of others is really a turn on for me. The closer, the better.

While I love my new job....there are many things I miss about adult. The mainstream world isn't the same.

02-21-2011

Dates are fun. I love when they repeat. Isn't today Presidents' Day?

Today is a day for love and lovers.

Luckily, I love myself! ;)

Today marks 1.5 years alcohol-free. Woo hoo!



And for those of us with a sick sense of humor:


Happy Valentine's Day!!

Legionnaires disease?!?

Conventions have convention parties. Some are more fun than others. I have personally attended a few at the Playboy Mansion and those are always great. There are live concerts, celebrities, naked women everywhere, cocktails... The first time I went I made out with a super hot porn star in the grotto. The second time I went I was naked, wearing body paint. My third time I wore a long form-fitting gown.

There was recently another Playboy Mansion party for an LA convention which I've attended in previous years. This year 80 people from the party became sick, some of whom have been diagnosed with Legionnaires' disease. A news report from NY Post suggests that this outbreak may have been caused from the fog machine at the Playboy Mansion.

Based on how it's spread, through inhaling infected water, a fog machine could easily be to blame. Also, the grotto--while wonderful--is a closed-in very humid area.

Many of my friends were at this party so as soon as I heard about it I immediately googled Legionnaire's disease. The symptoms include fever, chills, headache, muscle aches, coughing, and fatigue. However, this isn't just a normal flu; people die from it with average fatality rate of 5-30 percent!!

Some who live in LA believe this outbreak is not the fault of the Playboy Mansion. They reported that there is currently a problem with Legionnaires' disease in Southern California. Very scary!

Life Changes

For those of you who have been wondering, I started the new job a few weeks ago. Depending on how it goes, this may be a permanent change. The corporate mainstream world is a difficult lifestyle adjustment after years of "play time"...so, even though I am no longer stripping, I will continue blogging.     :)

The US Goverment wants to extend the Patriot Act

"Sacrificing liberty for safety and security" goes against everything our Founding Fathers stood for. It is scary that our current government wants to take so much power away from us while trampling on our Constitution.

I know very little about Ron Paul except that he is against the Patriot Act.
Why aren't more politicians willing to stand up and defend the rights of the people?

The ACLU describes the three provisions that would be extended under the bill:

Section 215 of the Patriot Act authorizes the government to obtain “any tangible thing” relevant to a terrorism investigation, even if there is no showing that the “thing” pertains to suspected terrorists or terrorist activities. This provision is contrary to traditional notions of search and seizure, which require the government to show reasonable suspicion or probable cause before undertaking an investigation that infringes upon a person’s privacy. Congress must ensure that things collected with this power have a meaningful nexus to suspected terrorist activity or it should be allowed to expire.

Section 206 of the Patriot Act, also known as “roving John Doe wiretap” provision, permits the government to obtain intelligence surveillance orders that identify neither the person nor the facility to be tapped. This provision is contrary to traditional notions of search and seizure, which require government to state with particularity what it seeks to search or seize. Section 206 should be amended to mirror similar and longstanding criminal laws that permit roving wiretaps, but require the naming of a specific target. Otherwise, it should expire.

Section 6001 of the Intelligence Reform and Terrorism Prevention Act of 2004, or the so-called “Lone Wolf” provision, permits secret intelligence surveillance of non-US persons who are not affiliated with a foreign organization. Such an authorization, granted only in secret courts is subject to abuse and threatens our longtime understandings of the limits of the government’s investigatory powers within the borders of the United States. This provision has never been used and should be allowed to expire outright.

I was bummed when Dennis Kucinich dropped out of the Presidential race.
He would've been a President for the People.



Does blurring of our rights bother you? It should. The U.S. Government isn't even following their own rule book anymore. What makes the United States so special? It's the CONSTITUTION!! We need to protect it.

What is too far?

In January 2003 Dick Delicious and the Tasty Testicles became the first ever recipients of the Annual Howard Stern Award for excellence in the field of music. They are rude, funny, out of control, shock rock.

** WARNING: Their songs are obscene. Don't click unless you are over 18. Their previous albums include "Last Man in the Gangbang", "$400 Shuffle" (a song about coming up with money for an abortion), "Pruning the Bush", "I Wish I was a Dog"..


...fast forward to now...

Their most recent song has been leaked early before their 4th album release--just in time to cause controversy with today's Black Eyed Peas Superbowl show:


Is there such a thing as going too far? The first amendment protects parody speech and Dick Delicious and the Tasty Testicles is obviously that. While they may be over most people's line, it's still parody.

It's just that simple

Jupiter in Aries: Take a Leap of Faith!

It is shocking just how dead-on my horoscopes always are. I have many plans for these next few months. Starting with today... Go Jupiter!!

Jupiter, the visionary planet of idealism and optimism, is about to set up shop in Aries, the sign that gets things done. The move will occur on January 22 and last until June 4, so that's four-and-a-half months to dream big -- and go big.

When Jupiter and Aries became briefly reacquainted last summer, it gave you a taste of what this partnership could bring. Now, with Jupiter moving full-throttle into Aries, energies will come alive and help you create opportunities of a lifetime. Jupiter likes to take any energies it meets and expand them. This means that some of Aries' best qualities -- taking action, getting the job done and leading the way toward bigger and better things -- will be emphasized and become even more prominent in your day-to-day life. This will be an amazing time for you to truly shine and take your place at the helm.

On the other hand, Jupiter will also expand Aries' less-than-stellar qualities -- stubbornness, recklessness, taking things too far. Plus, there's that tendency to be overconfident and competitive, all while raising your fists and charging headlong into some holy crusade. Throughout all this, Jupiter will be right there to provide some sort of excuse as to why this aggression is okay - which of course it isn't. In fact, it's up to you to remember this, and to ensure you don't go overboard.

That said, this really is a great time to make something amazing happen. You know that enthusiasm you feel about your most creative projects? Grab it and run with it! During these next few months, you'll have a chance to do more than you ever dreamed possible. Taking a leap of faith can be scary … but it can also help you pull yourself out of a rut and get you moving along a new, exciting path.

So go ahead. Take a deep breath, close your eyes and jump. You might just find you can fly.

Source: Astrology.com email

SFO gets an "A" for hiring non-TSA security personnel

The San Francisco Domestic Airport hires outside contractors instead of TSA. Believe it or not, there is a huge difference! I went through the San Francisco airport today (with my cats). The man at the x-ray suggested I bring the cats into a private room so they couldn't escape while scanning my bags. What an incredible idea! With all the times I have flown with them, this is the first time ever that this has been suggested and allowed. TSA makes me juggle cats in each arm!

Like always, I opted-out of the radiation-rich, picture-taking, full-body x-ray machine. As I posted last month, this leads to an invasive groping search. This time my private female screener was courteous, polite, and respectfully walked me through the process. It did not feel like molestation and I didn't feel like she pushed beyond their legal rights. It was as good of an experience as being screened can be. So much so, in fact, that I am writing a letter to Covenant Aviation Security, LLC, so her good and appropriate behavior gets positive recognition. Hopefully more airports will get rid of TSA and hire private screeners instead.

Affiliate Ball

The Affiliate Ball was the final party for the conventions and Three 6 Mafia was playing. Like the ham I am, of course I got up on their stage and danced. So did about 50 other hot women mostly porn stars, models, and Vegas strippers.



The whole party was fun. I got to hang out with lots of friends and even made a few new ones. Here is a picture of me from the show (I have lots of pics but this is the one I know my readers would most like to see):

Sarah Peachez is gorgeous, totally sweet, an an amazing kisser.

Last night I arrived in Reno to dance for the weekend at Wild Orchid. Woo hoo!
Tonight may possibly be my last night stripping.

Me & My Ideal Partner 2011

Who I am: Playful, independent, highly sexual, no regrets, ex-pat, generous, spiritual, zest for life, not afraid to say “no”, follows my heart, non-smoker, self-respecting, loves unconditionally, open-minded, intuitive, jet-setter, comfortable talking about anything, shares, adventurous, self-thinking, lifetime student, love traveling, compassionate, childlike (not childish), enjoys helping others, romantic, good in bed, honest even when it hurts to be, sober, pretty, non-jealous, girly, computer geek, fit, genuine, old soul, enjoys reading, grounded, self aware, vain, happy, tenacious, intelligent, believes everything happens for a reason, loyal friend, motivated, realist, smiles and laughs easily, positive, healthy eater, sports fan, kinky, trustworthy, dog lover, cat owner, fair, logical, reliable, awesome boobs, thinks outside the box, one-of-a-kind, thoughtful, respectful, "show off", teacher, grateful, helps friends move, accepts people for who they are, sense-of-humor, values privacy, spontaneous, turns dreams into reality, liberal yet conservative, motherly, bisexual, confident, lovable, likes crossdressers, child-free.
Caution: high maintenance, clumsy, mildly bipolar, polyamorous, allergic to drama



Many people approach life-partner relationships as "This person likes me/is ok/attractive, let's see if it can work.." Not me. Just because someone is good enough to be my friend does not make him partner material. My standards are set high--too high some might think. There is no shortage of potential partners and I refuse to change someone to make him fit the mold I want. Doing so isn't fair to either party. There is someone out there who is already *exactly* the person I want and I am already *exactly* what he wants. When the time is right, we will find each other. Until then, I'll enjoy being single. No rush.

My ideal partner has these qualities: Genius intelligence, is my best friend, ex-pat mentality, knows and likes the true me, shares hopes and dreams, funny, honest even when it hurts to be, treats me as an equal, ethical, loves himself, has faith in me, thinks outside-the-box, successful, gentleman, makes me laugh, computer geek, generous, we talk about everything, speaks more than one language, always considerate of my feelings, zest for life, athletic, non-smoker, gives me space, worldly, open-minded, loves unconditionally, supports me mentally/physically/financially/emotionally, good in bed, spiritual, articulate, sense of humor, motivated, sincere, trustworthy, romantic, helps me better myself, spontaneous, likes cats & dogs, listens to me, teaches me, builds and repairs things, acts like a man and treats me like a lady, smart in ways I'm not, fair, includes me, takes chances, respectful, puts me in my place, likes to learn, high sex drive, reliable, family values, enjoys traveling, confident, cuddles, responsible, loyal, not jealous, healthy eater, protects me, stops me from eating cake
Deal breakers: Drug addiction, alcoholism, scares me, makes me feel bad about myself, lies, disrespectful, violent


This "Ideal Partner" posting has become a yearly tradition: 2008, 2009, and 2010. Each year I re-examine who I am and what I want out of life. The list gets longer and more focused each year. When I am interested in a man, I actually do a pro/con list for him too. By putting it all down on paper, it is easy to see which qualities I admire and whether he has any tiny red flags that shouldn't be ignored. (Usually it's an effective weeding out process.)


Last month I had a my horoscope done for 2011. Essentially it said I will remain single. That's ok. I like myself. :)


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