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Girls Watch Porn

I'm not ashamed to admit that I love porn!


My favorite kind of porn is homemade. A few of my friends run their own homemade porn paysites. I love watching friends, and I support the making of homemade porn, so this month I've joined a few of their sites:

Trixie Fontaine = www.tastytrixie.com. Not only is she a Trixie, she also has HUGE natural boobs, is blond, smart, and we share many of the same fetishes. Access to her site gets you into her tranny girlfriend's site too: www.deliats.com!!

Naughty Allie = www.naughtyallie.com All I can say is WOW!! While not a stripper, she could easily work at any club: huge boobs, flat stomach, long blond hair. She is extremely sexy and dirty, and is a real life swinger.

Vanilla DeVille = www.VanillaDeVille.com Another real life swinger. Vanilla has been featured in Playboy Magazine and is a porn star. Gorgeous brunette with the most amazing ass ever! Not to mention, she is a total sweetheart.


Homemade porn doesn't get any hotter than this!! If I don't post any blog updates for a while, you'll know why.... ;)

Kacey Jordan's betrayal of her client, Charlie Sheen

Charlie liked to hire hookers. On my 22nd birthday I hired my first hooker and have done so many times since, so this makes sense to me. Hiring hookers isn't as much about the sex as it is paying for the woman to leave afterward. Really.
It is paying for fun without any drama. Simple. No late night phone calls, no stalkers, no regrets.

There is a big difference between a private hookup and paid sex.
Paid sex implies discretion.

Kacey Jordan gives hookers everywhere a bad name. As "paid entertainment" she should NOT have went to the media. Charlie Sheen even overpaid her fee several times over. Instead of being appreciative, she's choosing to blab everything to the entire world. Hopefully all of her other clients have taken notice and stopped seeing her. She is a disgrace to the whole industry.

Stifled Voyeur

There is a lady at work who has such a sweet behind that I always catch myself staring at it. In the conservative world this behavior is not okay so I totally have to fight my urges to ogle.

In the adult world I could walk up to her and say:

"Wow! You have an amazing ass!"

And, instead of being sued, slapped, or fired, she would respond back with, "Ahh, thank you sweetie! I love your breasts!"

From there, we may exchange numbers for a later play date. *REMINDER* "I only have casual sex with women"

Over the years a few of my friends have even performed private masturbation shows just for me using their webcams. YEAH BABY! Whether I'm turning around to watch a man's face as I grind on his lap during a dance, surfing porn, or watching a XXX show, being able to see the sexual pleasure of others is really a turn on for me. The closer, the better.

While I love my new job....there are many things I miss about adult. The mainstream world isn't the same.

Hustlers

Since the porn conventions are in town I am taking several days off to hang out with friends. Last night's party was at the new Hustler Club. Being inside a gentlemen's club totally puts me in my element. I wasn't stripping--I was there as a customer. Needless to say, I had a blast! The Hustler Club is Vegas's newest mega-strip club: multi-level with several stages going at once and hundreds of girls. It was a fun time. While I didn't bring my camera, several other people did. (Note: Cameras are NOT allowed in strip clubs. The private party I was with was granted an exception.)



There were a few Reno dancers at Hustler. It was great seeing them! I miss Wild Orchid so I may drive up to Reno next weekend to work.

Soon I need to decide which life path I want moving forward

Websites that want to make money have affiliate programs because it is the easiest form of marketing. So, why didn't my pin-up site have one? The most obvious answer applies here: money wasn't my motivation. (!) Rather, I got off on knowing that the men who joined my site were men whom I personally handed my card to (maybe even lapdanced for). It is a huge turn-on to know that people you've met in real life are masturbating while fantasizing about fucking you. Really. That is HOT!! And the sexual charge I got was worth more to me than any extra money I would've made.

When I strip, I do so for similar reasons. Stripping is a fantasy job. Men compliment me all night, appreciate my teasing them, and then go home and masturbate while thinking of me. It's kind of like being a 15 year old girl again, except it's a legitimate job which pays handsomely. WOW! The more money I make, the sexier I feel... And...the sexier I feel, the more money I make. It doesn't get better than that!
Those who know me laugh about how rarely I actually work. To give my readers a good idea, I usually post on my blog when I am going somewhere to strip. Vegas is my primary workplace but some small town clubs are more enjoyable (Wild Orchid in Reno is my current favorite, Big Al's in Peoria is second). This is a social job, I love the interaction, and always keep a spare bikini and set of high heels in my car. When the mood strikes, I'm prepared!       ;)

Most importantly, stripping is "fun" and not "work". Whenever it has began to feel like work, I've stopped. The more carefree I approach it, the easier it is to make money. I'm not there to work--I am there to PLAY. Attitude is everything.




My real background is marketing and HR. Can you visualize me as the Marcom Manager of a Fortune 500 company? What about the top sales executive for a well-known publication? I have been both. Corporate life isn't for everyone and I generally prefer the flexibility and control of being self-employed.

Recently I was offered another full-time permanent position working at a conservative corporation. This is a good opportunity for me. If I take it, Trixie must disappear. No more stripping, no more adult conventions, possibly even no more blogging. Am I ready to give this up? They requested I start in mid-January.

If I turn down this job, I will likely step up my adult work. What would that mean exactly? It could be stripping on a more regular schedule, maybe doing porn, possibly escorting.. I haven't decided yet. No matter what I choose to do, I will enjoy myself. I'm a strong believer in "He who enjoys life, wins at life".


Decisions.... Decisions....

Celibacy no more

Recently I had sex. I've missed sex for a long time. Now that I've had my itch scratched, I crave more. Those who have spoken to me know I'm a highly sexual person. Those who've experienced me know that that is an understatement. I enjoy sex...a lot. It's the act of sex which I enjoy. I'd rather fuck for 4 hours and not orgasm at all than have sex for 20 minutes ending with a great orgasm.

So, why did I stop having sex last year? Simple: to put an end to the drama in my life. Huh? Without a sexual partner, nobody was close enough to create drama for me. If someone tried, I'd just walk away.

How is now different? After removing the drama from my life and getting sober (14 months now!) I see the world clearly again. I know what I want out of life and what I don't. Just because sex is great isn't a good enough reason to date someone. I am not ready to be in a relationship with anyone and I'm also not a casual sex kind of girl...

Here are the only reasonable options I have been able to come up with to stay single AND get laid regularly:

(1) I could have a long-term fuck buddy. = I already have one and he is fun (will happily refer for hot females). He has been my default go-to guy for several years whenever I've been single (although obviously not during my celibacy stint).... He lives far away and never pressures me. Unfortunately, his availability is limited. Finding a quality replacement would be tough.

(2) I could be a porn star. = I have given this serious consideration. Fuck buddy sex is meaningless fun. Becoming a porn star would also bring fame and fortune. And since the sex would be for work, it wouldn't feel casual. Not to mention I have a lot of friends in this industry; if I decide to go this route it'll be easy.

(3) I could escort. = This is another scenario I have thought a lot about. My libido can easily handle four times per day. Escorting would combine the pros of having a fuck buddy (non-committal drama-free sex) with the pros of being a porn star (lots of cash with sex being justified as work). From working as a stripper and being an escort client for much of my adult life, I understand this business reasonably well. Realistically, I worry I'd get addicted to having sex so often and enjoy it entirely too much.

AVN is in a few months. I have a lot to think about....