GLBT

I came from an understanding household. I am bisexual, my sister was a lesbian. Our parents loved us unconditionally. However, society is not so kind. My sister was "out" in high school and said that she wouldn't have wished that aftermath on anyone--it was much worse than she anticipated. This was a decade ago in California. Considering California is the most liberal of the states, I can only imagine how much worse it would be elsewhere. No wonder the suicide rate for GLBT teenagers is significantly higher than the heterosexual population. It's not that they are inherently "messed up", it's often that they feel hopeless after being outcast from society.



Someone's sexual preference shouldn't be anyone else's concern unless that person is hitting on you or you like them. If someone is making unwanted advances, it doesn't matter which sex they are. If you are interested in someone who is not attracted to your gender, that is the same as liking someone who doesn't like you back. It's not a big deal. People need to grow up and stop judging each other.

Instead of tricking your friends, dish out random acts of kindness today.

It is awful that it is so socially acceptable to lie in our culture that we actually have a day set aside to "celebrate" and play pranks.

I refuse to participate.

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Here is the general astrology forecast for April:

April is a very intense month with Pluto stationing, Mercury going retrograde, Saturn moving back into Virgo and Saturn opposite Uranus, and very few hours of the moon being void of course. Hold on for the ride, it should be interesting. April begins with the Moon in secretive Scorpio giving a cutting and mysterious combination for April fools day. Jokes can have an “I gotcha back” feeling. The universe might have a joke or two in mind for us that are deep and mysterious.

The energy that starts our month is best used for focusing on a hobby you feel passionate about. This vibration gives strength and courage to go after what you want in spite of any obstacles in your way. The big lesson this month will be there is no moment like the present.

The length of the void of course moons are very short this month. This indicates life will be moving very fast. Friday the second Mercury enters Taurus and the Moon enters Sagittarius; beliefs are firmly grounded and fought for. Not a pleasant combination when considering the shadow side of the energy and the day being Good Friday in the Christian calendar (suicide bombers willing to fight and die for beliefs).

Travel is good for Easter weekend, getting out of the normal routine and seeing something new and different will bring hope and optimism to your life. Pluto is retrograde on the 6th. Pluto is very powerful and the energy is heightened on this day. Meditate and tap into this vibration to increase your intuition and own personal power. April 7th Saturn moves back into Virgo and will give us the opportunity to put into our daily routine good health habits, change our diet for the better, and recommit to an exercise program.

The new moon on the 14th is our annual Aries reminder to seek our own inner warrior and develop courage to take risk needed to have the life we want. Mercury is retrograde April 18th until May 11th. With Mercury’s slow journey through Taurus thinking is slowed down to mull over thoughts every which way to be sure that what you are thinking is really what you value. The Sun enters Taurus on the 20th and with the moon in Cancer it is a perfect day to honor the Sun’s journey in Taurus with gratitude towards nature and wholesome food. Earth day, on the 22nd, the moon is in Leo giving us a fun day to play.

Friday the 23rd Venus is square Neptune, connect with your inner artist and enjoy an outing that is creative. Venus moves into Gemini on Sunday the 25th, the value of friendship and communication is given to us from Venus in Gemini. This is time to reconnect with friends and keep it light. Relationships will move towards a lighter less possessive feel. If you feel challenged with jealousy or neediness in your relationship you can learn from Venus in Gemini who teaches the value of communication and how to lighten up and feel good.

The full moon on the 28th has Mercury conjunct the Sun, a deep energy asking us to connect with our higher self. Self discovery and healing work done on this day will be very powerful. If you feel stuck in life use this energy to meditate and receive answers to a concern. Dreams will be very powerful, keep your dream journal handy to record the messages. The month ends with the moon in Sagittarius springing us into May with hope and optimism.


for Sagittarius

Spring has Sprung! Astrologically, April is the month of renewal and new beginnings as a new zodiacal year begins with the Spring Equinox and we are ready to charge out into the world!

This year, however, with Saturn in Libra and Pluto in Capricorn, we can expect obstacles and delays before we are able to settle down. Venus, located in indulgent Taurus, will make for passion and great enthusiasm, as it joins hands with flamboyant Mars in Leo, and then get ready for magical moments with a few sparks flying around April 5, when it slinks into a sexy and seductive trine to Pluto.

However, the light-hearted mood will not last long. Pluto turns retrograde on April 2 signalling in a time for new beginnings and dead ends. Retrograde Saturn, the planet of duty, discipline and hard work, also reverses into Virgo on April 7 to make sure that we have learned the lessons of realism and discipline that Saturn has been trying to teach us for the last two years. This is a good time to get serious about a new a new fitness regime and an even better time to streamline work methods.

Expect a fair amount of burning the candle at both ends with the the energetic Aries New Moon on the 14 since temptation-heavy Venus will not put up with all work and no play. On April 17, Mercury turns retrograde in Taurus for the second time this year, so be prepared and use your knowledge of how to work with Mercury retrograde periods
to make your life easier.

As the Sun moves of out impatient and hyper-active Aries into earthy Taurus on the 20, we will all feel a shift in gears -- the pace will become slower and there will more solid achievements. A favourable Sun trine Pluto on the 23 will give us the opportunity to empower ourselves and realize that we can overcome our own hurdles and be masters of our own destiny.

And lastly there will be a Saturn in Virgo opposition Uranus in Pisces to contend with on April 26. Oppositions are planets sitting exactly across from each other on the zodiac. Saturn and Uranus will pull us in two contradictory directions at once. For Saturn, the old ways are the best, however Uranus will demand that we go for innovations, experimentations, encourage us to rebellious and follow our own whims instead of listening to others. Remember, life is not black and white –- it is all varying shades of gray!

Astrological Characteristics - Sagittarius

The SAGITTARIUS Nov. 22 - Dec. 21

Optimistic, Freedom-Loving, Jovial, Good-Humored, Honest, Straightforward, Intellectual and Philosophical, Blindly Optimistic, Careless, Irresponsible, Superficial, Tactless and Restless

While Sagittarians are the nomads of the Zodiac, they do not wander aimlessly. They are seekers of the truth and will go anywhere and talk to anyone for answers to their questions. Knowledge and wisdom drive them and provide the energy for their liberal approach to life. Sagittarians are drawn to the philosophical and spiritual because these subjects provide answers to the questions that burn inside them.

Sagittarians are the intellectuals of the Zodiac. They are lucid thinkers who appreciate others agreeing with their conclusions. Sometimes they are so confident their deductions are beyond dispute they become dogmatic and argumentative. Still, the Sagittarian quest for information drives them to listen to anyone and absorb what they find useful and quickly disregard the rest.

It is the nature of Sagittarians to roam freely. If they feel intellectually or physically restricted they may become bad-tempered very quickly. When Sagittarians are given the freedom they need they are kind, optimistic, lucky and not afraid of taking an occasional risk. They are also a charming lot who can be self-indulgent procrastinators. Overall, Sagittarians allowed the freedom they need are a delight to be around.

The Sagitarian In Love: Sagittarians love any new form of sexual expression that challenges and excites them. Both tolerant and eager to please, their honesty can sometimes prove too much for those who prefer a more mysterious, or veiled approach to love.

Sagittarians are best involved with a steadier, stronger personality, who can understand their need for independence, yet still be there after an occasional flair of temper. Their frank and open motives are often misunderstood, threatening to more subdued signs.

Although they hate to be tied down, they are willing to experiment with all manner of relationship styles. As long as their partner is able to keep up with their wide-ranging interests and is prepared to come up with new experiments in lovemaking (and certainly does not mind them doing the same), their relationship will be exciting and reasonably long lasting. Mutual honesty is the key to success for the Sagittarian.

Famous Sagitarians Include: Sir Winston Churchill, Ludwig van Beethoven, Mark Twain, Francis Albert Sinatra, Jim Morrison, Walt Disney, Dale Carnegie, Bruce Lee, Steven Spielberg , Phil Donahue, Jane Fonda, Uri Geller, and the Dali-Lama
Ideal Jobs Include:
Sagittarians are well-suited to careers as travel agents, explorers, professors, photographers, ambassadors, import-export traders and thrill-seekers.

Lucky Numbers:
9, 18, 27, 36, 45, 54
Planet: Jupiter
Star Stone: Topaz
Element: Fire

# Symbol : Archer
# Ruling Planet: Jupiter
# Keywords: Carefree, independent, philosophical
# Polarity: Positive
# Duality or Gender: Masculine
# Element: Fire
# Quality: Mutable
# Body Areas: Hips, thighs, liver
# Countries: Spain, Hungary, Saudi Arabia, Australia and
# Yugoslavia
# Cities: Toronto, Avignon, Bradford, Budapest, Naples, Cologne and Nottingham
# Stone: Topaz
# Colors: Dark blues, rich purples
# Similarity to Chinese Sign : RAT

From: http://www.sexualastrology.com/zodiac_horoscope_sagittarius.html

Horoscopes get sexy. Find out what a person's zodiac sign says about their sexuality:

Sexual Style: This ardent, enthusiastic world traveler will make you feel like the only person in the world when he's in bed with you, but if he hears the call of the open road, you might as well enjoy the view as he leaves. Still, while you've got him, you're in for a grand time, as the Sagittarius is open, adventurous and committed to having fun. Expect him to get lusty when in a new and exciting place. "They please you and they want you to please them; they'll try anything, and they'll make love anywhere," says Vega. 10 Places To Have Sex Before You Die

Sexually Compatible Signs: Aries, Leo, Gemini, Libra, Aquarius

Turn-ons: Adventure. Make the archer pursue you. Try weird positions and exotic sexual techniques, preferably in far-off locales. Mile-high club, meet your newest members!

Turn-offs: Predictability. If you always want to stay at home and watch movies on Saturdays, your Sagittarius sweetums is going to shrivel up from boredom. Step away from the datebook and put down the remote if you want to get lucky later.

From: http://www.yourtango.com/slideshow/37082/8

Bras

I just took my measurements and entered them into a bra size calculator. Here are the results:

US = 34DD
UK = 34DD
AUS/NZ = 12DD
EU/JAP = 75G
B/E/F/P = 90G

US = United States of America. CA = Canada. UK = United Kingdom. AUS = Australia. NZ = New Zealand. A = Austria. B = Belgium. CH = Switzerland. D = Germany. E = Spain. I = Italy. F = France. NL = Netherlands. P = Portugal. S = Sweden. RU = Russia. JAP = Japan.

Hmmmm, close. A 32DDD (US) is the best fit.

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Analysis: Californians Use 1,000,000 Pounds Of Pot Annually

Why has it taken so long to get to this point?

Analysis: Californians Use 1M Pounds Of Pot Annually - Project Economy News Story - KCRA Sacramento

California is broke. With a solutions this easy, why do we even have to think about it? I mean, really... It should be a done deal.

Amigo and the bitch

My dog and I often go to the park to run and play. He has several dog friends there. One of them is a female dog, shorter than him, disheveled. They really like each other a lot. My dog is the dominant one; I don't don't think he knows that he has been fixed. Lol..

Sometimes I feed her. Today I even brought dog treats with me and gave her one. She chose to parade it around and save it for later. Instead of being appreciative and sweet, she was extremely aggressive, growling and barking to protect the treat. It looked like she might even attack. All I could think was "Wow, what a bitch. No more dog treats for you." Luckily she showed up after we ran our laps.

Couch update: He is still misbehaving. Although it is becoming more clear that each time he "acts out" it is due to jealousy (mostly over the cats).

March 2010 Horoscope

Welcome to the month of enchanting Pisces! During the Sun’s stay in the sign of the 2 fish, we enter a world where dreams and spirituality are the rulers. Our emotions are more fluid, like the ocean waves and our inner feelings are better expressed through songs, poetry and art than in logical ways.

Expect to feel your emotions and tears welling up frequently. You may hear a sad story, or tell one of your own. The fish tends toward a sense of romantic melancholy and singing the ‘blues’. Using your spiritual connections and creativity are the best ways to move through these mystical waters.

The best news of the month, is the planet Mars going into direct motion on March 10th. This dynamic planet has been retrograde since Dec. 20th, 2009. The resulting roadblocks and delays have required us to be patient and review the forward motion of our lives. Questions of: Where are we going? How do we get there? Was that really where we wanted to go in the first place? Is that what you’ve been asking yourself? Mars in the sign of Leo, centered our review around self-esteem, ego-awareness, children, pets and love. Leo is determined to live a creative life, full of joy and fulfillment. As Mars goes direct, look at areas of your life that could be re-adjusted to accommodate more radiance. Is your current life-path allowing you the bliss and fun that you’d like to be having?

Our Full Moon this month is in Libra on the 29th. This moon will bring up issues surrounding our relationships. Saturn’s influence on the moon during its stay in Libra, ensures we’ll be looking at our sense of responsibility to those we care about. This will impact all partnerships, with a special focus on adult parent-child connections.

Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 20)
Expect a sense of restlessness this month. You will have to work harder at being your truthful self, while not offending others. The realm of Pisces feels a little off-kilter to the Archer. People are more prone to take your honest feelings in a negative way, so just tread lightly. The energy will shift later in the month and send some positive vibrations your way. You are in a phase of life that has you testing your limits. You may feel you can conquer the world and you are out to see if that’s possible. The best advice is to relinquish any negative ego-drives, as they will only stand in your way to success.

Leo (July 23 - Aug 22)
The energetic tide is turning for you, lovely lions! Mars, the planet of direction and drive has been moving through your sign since Oct. 17th, 2009. This energy got put into backwards mode with Mars going retrograde on Dec. 20th, 2009. Now as Mars shifts into direct motion, you will feel your spirit roaring out once again! Anything you planned will be acted on and integrated into your life. You’ll feel aggressive about reaching your goals, your temper will flare more easily and communication will be blunt. Mars is in your sign through June 8th, so enjoy.

Libra (Sept 23 - Oct 22)
Love and friendship will require some care this month. After mid-month, you will be speaking more impulsively and acting in ways that surprise you! This can be upsetting, but it will give you spark and boldness in your life path. Launching a new venture is favored, but will work out better in the long-term if you have some partners to help you along the way. Favorable aspects from Mars will be with you for the next 3 months, opportunities for growth and new direction will be coming your way. Be willing to take acceptable risks.

Ariel Rose is an Atlanta-area astrologer and intuitive. She also offers Tarot and Sound Therapy, with affordable sliding scale rates. Contact by phone: 404-256-4477 or email: arielastrology@hotmail.com

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McCruelty: I'm Hatin' It--Learn More.

I watched the health care hearings today

First I want to say that Barack Obama is extremely well-spoken. Even when saying something I disagree with, he makes it sound good. This is important The whole world is watching.

A man who spoke immediately after Obama (John ?) made great points. I am disappointed in myself that I didn't start taking notes until after he spoke. (sorry)

One speaker said that "under the Republican plan the people who get a break are the ones who are healthy. The people who pay more are sick." He didn't like that scenario but it makes sense to me. While I don't want to sound callous, most people get sick due to their own lifestyle and coping techniques--it makes sense they should pay more than people who take care of themselves.

Later this same speaker said "We need to hold down the cost by bringing everyone into the system." Uh, no. If health care was free for everyone then YES. Health care should already be factored into our taxes--but that's not what will pass. Instead, people will be paying even more than they do now.

About a half hour before the session was supposed to end, Obama said that if we won't want to leave people out, we have to figure out how to pay for it. We could have easily paid for health care with the money he doled out for bailouts. We bailed out NASCAR, rum, numerous banks. What about the American people? There is no money left.

I was disappointed to see Obama openly acting bored at the end while others were giving their final comments.

When any listener begins to use their hands to support their head, it is a signal that boredom may well have set in and they are holding their head up to stop them falling asleep. Often, the degree of the listener's boredom is related to the extent to which the arm and hand are supporting the head.

It usually begins with the chin being supported by the thumb and then by the fist as interest dissipates further. If the head is fully supported by the hands, this is usually the ultimate boredom signal.       Source

At this point they had already ran 15 minutes past the scheduled time. Obama stated that he was going to give everyone who hadn't spoken yet an opportunity before he gives his final comments. While I want to keep listening, it has been a long day.....

The etch-a-sketch example was brilliant. The government needs to completely start over if its going to consider national health care. With my opinion stated, I feel I should point out that I was one of the uncovered Americans. I was not able to qualify for insurance in the US and this factored into my decision to move outside the country. The current system is flawed; yet a flawed system is better than the disastrous alternative on the table now.

Pluto Sextile Sun: Use Your Charm to Get What You Want!

On February 23, the Sun, drifting through seductive and dreamy Pisces, forms a sextile to powerfully persuasive Pluto. While the word 'sextile' may sound enticing, all it means is that Pluto will be at a 60-degree angle to the Sun, and that its intense magnetism will boost the Pisces Sun in a way that brings real results. Now is the time to use your good judgment and personal power wisely to get the maximum advantage of these favorable conditions!

Have you been wrestling with dilemmas and tensions since late December? This was probably the influence of Pluto being conjunct to (or within) the same degree as the Sun. Pluto's current activity suggests this is the time to get it all together! You are now in control ... but not in an aggressive or obvious manner. You've learned a few lessons and you will not be caught in the same way as before. Pluto is too subtle for that. Now is the time to smile sweetly, knowing you can pull all the right strings and make everyone dance to your tune. Whether it be a crisis at work or a romantic situation, you will know how to use your personal power and get things done. This special configuration of the planets gives your inner core all the strength it needs.

But how well do you know your inner core? Our Revelations Reading suggests that you are the creator of your own life. Interpret each planet in your chart on its highest and best level to determine the degree of happiness and success in your life. When you function on this level, your life takes on a richness of dimension like never before. You take the responsibility for creating your life the way you would like it to be!

You see the planets as those gifts and talents you have chosen to express in this lifetime. You fulfill your limitless potential because you see what can be, rather than what cannot. Your chart then becomes a guide, rather than the source of your happiness or unhappiness; it becomes a reflection of your own spiritual evolution. When you express who you are by being your highest and best, you lift those around you as well!

From: Astrology.com

Watch where you sit

So one of the best responses to my puppy post was about the Dog Whisperer. He has a website too, which I have been reading. Most of the ideas make sense and I have been putting them in practice. However, tonight the puppy put me through a real test and I lost it. He took a crap all over the couch. When I say "all over" I mean he went a little, took a few steps, went some more, and so on to make sure he got the WHOLE COUCH!

Could I possibly be more mad? I'm not sure how but if he finds a way he may need a new home. When I brought him over to his poo, he immediately cowered. I broke down and whacked him with a rolled newspaper a few times (this is the first time I've done this). He is also locked out for the night (first time for that as well).

Under the circumstances, was there a better way for me to handle this? How do I prevent it from happening again? He knew what he was doing was wrong yet did it anyway.

This needs to be written and is way overdue.

It seems that many of my readers prefer to email me privately with their comments to my blog posts. PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS! While I appreciate feedback, it should be posted on my blog and not emailed to me. Rarely do I have time to log into my email account as it is and for it to be filled with tons of extra emails which should've been posted as comments is frustrating.

For example, from my dog advice post.... Numerous people emailed me with the same advice. Had the comments been posted publicly, it would've been clear that these were duplicate suggestions. I also received a few emails from people who were having similar problems asking me to please share whatever information I received (I don't have time to do that, btw). By posting comments, these people benefit too.

Please continue reading and sharing (just limit it exclusively to the comment box). I really do enjoy hearing your feedback. Comments make me smile and feel loved. :)

Happy Valentine's Day

My Valentine's plans? To cuddle up on the couch and read. YES!!

Three men live with me...and a "Princess". My house is filled with love. They may all be animals, but they love me unconditionally! ;)




** Today marks 6 months sober. The changes I made in my life 6 months ago were essential for my mental and physical health. I am truly happy.

Need puppy advice

While I've had dogs before, I've never raised a puppy before. It seems I am constantly being tested and I do not know how to react. How do you train a puppy to stop being bad? (I don't want to beat my pets.)

These are things that keep happening that are NOT allowed: dog takes my shoes and puts them in the doggie bed, eats the cat food, climbs up the stairway, sits on the couch. For all of these I yell "No!" with a stern powerful voice and sometimes follow through with and outside "time out" punishment.

This morning I caught the puppy on the couch again. I made it very clear that I was upset and put him outside. After 20min or so I went to let him back in and discovered he had eaten the cushion for my backyard furniture!!! I was livid! Still upset as I write this...

Urgent: Tell the USDA What YOU Think about GMOs in Organics

The U.S. Department of Agriculture is currently considering whether or not to approve the use of genetically engineered (GE) Roundup-Ready alfalfa. Their report says you don’t care about GMOs in organics. Comments are due to them by February 16th, so read on to hear how you can help. (Or go directly to the True Food Project’s Take Action website.)

As part of the approval process, they are required to prepare an Environmental Impact Statement (EIS), a detailed analysis of how the crop will affect the environment, organic and conventional farmers, farm animals, and the public. They’ve released their EIS on GE alfalfa, and here’s how the True Food Network at The Center for Food Safety summarized the issue in a recent Action Alert:

In 2006, the Center for Food Safety (CFS) sued the Department of Agriculture (USDA) for its illegal approval of Monsanto’s genetically engineered (GE) Roundup Ready alfalfa. The federal courts sided with CFS and banned GE alfalfa until the USDA fully analyzed the impacts of the plant on the environment, farmers, and the public in a rigorous analysis known as an environmental impact statement (or EIS). USDA released its draft EIS on December 14, 2009. A 60-day comment period is now open until February 16, 2010. This is the first time the USDA has done this type of analysis for any GE crop. Therefore, the final decision will have broad implications for all GE crops.

That Environmental Impact Statement, unfortunately, contains a number of questionable statements and conclusions. The part of the EIS that worries us the most is the claim that buyers of organic foods don’t care if those products are contaminated with GMOs (genetically modified, or genetically engineered, organisms). We know that nothing could be further from the truth, and that a huge number of our shoppers care deeply about avoiding GMOs in the foods they buy. We’ve gone to great lengths to keep GMOs out of organic foods and, through our work with The Non-GMO Project, have helped advance North America’s first standards and verification program for Non-GMO foods. We are intent on preserving our ability to provide non-GMO options for our shoppers. Every newly-approved GMO crop erodes our ability to provide non-GMO food, and leads to contamination of organic and non-GMO crops, due to pollen drift and other forms of contamination.

What can YOU do?

The True Food Project has set up a Take Action website to help you easily submit your comments to the USDA. These are due by February 16th so take the time to do it now. Please use the CFS’s form letter as a guide and personalize it as you see fit – let the USDA know exactly why you’re concerned about this issue, what you think about GMOs in your food, and what you think they should do with the approval of GE alfalfa.

In our own comments to the USDA, we emphasized a few key facts:

* Organic and natural foods consumers do care about the presence of GMOs in their food. In fact, avoiding genetically engineered ingredients is one of the key reasons that shoppers seek out organic foods.
* The contamination of organic and non-GE crops by GE material has presented a huge burden for our company and our industry.
* The unchecked proliferation of GE crops will directly harm organic producers and the integrity of the organic label.
* The approval of GE alfalfa would do more harm than previously approved GE crops, since alfalfa is a wind-pollinated perennial crop.

Everyone has their own opinion about GMOs; please tell your story to the USDA via the True Food Project action campaign by February 16th. We’d love to read what you think in the comment section below, but make sure you send your comments to the USDA first!

Source: http://blog.wholefoodsmarket.com/2010/02/urgent-tell-the-usda-what-you-think-about-gmos-in-organics/

My family just got bigger

Spent a few days with friends at the beach

We went offshore fishing!

"And the fish we caught was thiiiiiiisssss big"
(arms out as far as I can reach)

Manual Antonio

I'm going to melt if I can't outrun this wave!

Dinner at El Avion. The restaurant is build around the real plane in the center. Pretty cool!

Totally ok to park in the opposing traffic lane if you are a hot girl!


Life couldn't be better. I am very happy. :)

Today's Meditation - Regain a Sense of Serenity

By Jane Powell - www.MeditationsForWomen.com

“Your life is much more than meets the eye.”

When you feel stressed out, burned out and maxed out, it’s natural to conclude that life is hard. Wait a minute! Take a step back and reflect. Think of all the things that you are thankful for. You have your health, your family and all those little things you normally take for granted.

When its seems that you're rough-riding the coattails of life, watch a sunset, listen to good music or delve into an engrossing book. Allow yourself time to reflect on the gifts you have been given, both big and small.

Sometimes we need to step back, to look clearly at who we are and what we have. Life is always made up of more than meets the eye. Once we see this, we can put things back in perspective and regain a sense of serenity.

Part of my celibacy has been no porn.

And I've been doing a good job until yesterday when I clicked on a link I shouldn't have. Since then I have been watching alot (really hot, btw).



Now, I have always been quite proud of my blowjobs; I know what I'm doing and can get almost anyone off with my mouth alone--no hands. However, from watching porn for the past 24hrs I was reminded that many women only put the head of the guy's cock in their mouths while jerking him off. This is NOT what I do at all, but the pornos make it seems like this is the norm. Wouldn't it feel better to the man to have more of his cock inside a mouth? Have I been doing it all wrong?