3 Simple Rules in Life

Quitting stripping

If you truly want to quit stripping, follow these instructions:

Figure out how much money you need to survive without any luxuries. This means rent/utilities/groceries/car only. No eating out, no drugs or alcohol, no shopping for items other than the most basic essentials. This bare-bones amount will be much less than you expected. Save up enough for 6 months.

To prevent spending your savings, pre-pay your rent/mortgage and car payments, purchase money orders for future utility payments, and buy gift cards for the rest (gas, groceries, etc). Once you have done this, quit stripping completely (no part-time) and find a "normal" job that will cover your most basic expenses. The buffer you have saved up will be "insurance" to keep you from stressing out during the transition period. Try not to rely on any of the buffer money, but if you need to that is why it's there. Within a few months you should be adjusted to the difference in money and living a happy non-stripper life!

Seeing how easily money comes to others makes it more difficult to live poor. Maintaining your stripper friendships could tempt you back into the life...same with having drug/alcohol/shopping addictions. If you are serious about quitting, be prepared to give all of these things up.


Mental health is worth more than anything you can buy. If you're doing something that you feel is betraying yourself--no matter what it is--get out!


Why I quit stripping
Since I love being part of the sex industry, my reasons were very different: (1) the excitement was fading, & (2) I began dating.

Back in 2004, I quit a six-figure job to become a stripper. To say I was "dancing" wouldn't be accurate because, even though I incorporated dance moves, men only paid because my clothes came off too. It was a fantasy come true for me and I really enjoyed myself. When it became more work than fun, I stopped and went back to the mainstream world.

Stripping was never "just a job" for me; I got off on it. Therefore, ethically it felt inappropriate for me to continue while involved with someone. Both stripping and relationships are too personal for me to compartmentalize.

I know I am different than most women. My motivations, opportunities, my rationale... However, it's still difficult for me to understand how a woman could subject herself to this field if she doesn't enjoy it. Yes, the earning potential can be high--but for those who don't find it pleasurable, the skin industry messes them up. I've seen too many good people destroy themselves for money.

Lots of people find my blog from "how to quit stripping" internet searches. Assuming these are strippers who hate their jobs, feel trapped, and desperately want to find a way out, than this blog offers the solution. All it requires is the desire to change your life and the tenacity to follow through.

Goal setting for the new year

Hugnation is always very "feel good" and incredibly positive.
Today I sat in on a session about goal setting.     :)

1) Avoid goals that cause you stress.
2) Go towards things you want--not away from those you don't.
3) Make things present tense.
4) Make sure it's something you believe can happen.
5) Include things you are already doing.
6) Make sure it feels good.
7) Align your goals with your higher self.
8) Let go of your attachments.

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Take a few moments with Halcyon to recalibrate and remember that the world would far rather hug you than hurt you.

Merry Christmas!

The Voice Of Knowledge

The Voice Of Knowledge is the third book in a series by Don Miguel Ruiz. I'm finally getting around to reading it. :)

Here are some quotes:

"One little lie can be very contagious, spreading its seeds from person to person when we share it with others."

"The meaning of the word sin is 'to go against.' Everything that we say, everything that we do against ourselves is a sin."

"The result of believing in truth is goodness, love, happiness. When you live your life in truth, you feel good, and your life is wonderful. ... Believing in lies creates all the injustice, all of the violence and abuse, all of the suffering, not only in society but also in the individual."

"If you have no doubt about what you believe, then for you it is truth, even though it may be a lie."

"It's not important to be right or make others wrong. You know whatever they believe is just their point of view. It has nothing to do with you."

"And if I'm with somebody who tells me how good I am, that person can manipulate my life so easily because I need that recognition."

"I have an image of myself that I believe when I'm all alone, and I project different images around other people, depending on what I want them to believe about me."

"When we discover we are not what we believe we are, the foundation of our entire reality begins to collapse."

"You project what you want me to believe about you, and I modify it depending on what I believe. Now I am sure that you are what I believe you are. I might say, 'I know you,' when the truth is that I don't know you at all. I only know the story I create about you."

"We have a tendency to distort everything we perceive to make it agree with what we already believe; we 'fix it' to make it agree with our lies."

The first two books-- The Four Agreements and The Mastery of Love--are both excellent. This box set is the most valuable set of books I own for improving one's self and mastering a healthy view on relationships.

If you're ready to buy the three-book box set, instead of going to a bookstore, you can save over $20 by purchasing them as a package through this link!!

I am officially no longer single.

It's as if I wrote the "My Ideal Partner" list to describe him. Maybe I did...
We have known each other for a long time. He is a good man, open-minded, kind, non-jealous, loves me for me, and helps me grow. This means, I am retired. If I go back to the adult business in the future, it will only be with his encouragement and blessing. This is real, I am in love, and happy.

Many Peoria guys have requested I make a return trip.

Unfortunately, last night management of Big Al's told me that they no longer allow traveling strippers. Considering I've been well liked each time I've been there and even brought everyone gifts on my last trip, it surprised me greatly that this manager said no and wouldn't make an exception. What this means is that whenever I travel out to the midwest, Peoria will no longer be a place to see me. Sorry guys..

* Should you wind up there anyway, look up Izzy. She is a super hot 21 year old black goddess.   ;)

Sober over 2 years

From working as a Vegas stripper, I could out-drink 4 big men in a row. My party days were intense. Seriously. I was drinking 30-40 shots of Patron per night (yes, alcohol poisoning several times per week). In addition to that, I was also smoking 6 ounces of weed per month. During my extreme low I even took Valium, Xanax, and snorted powder.. Yeah, I was a party girl.

Then I decided to change my life.


Really. It was that simple. I quit....and I haven't been tempted to lapse.
I enjoy sober life (Mocktails and all!).

It is amazing how many of my dreams have come true since. During this time I took classes and passed certification exams for A+, Networking+, and Security+! In addition, I've taken numerous trips outside the US including: Costa Rica, Panama, Spain, France, Italy, Austria, Slovenia, Czech Republic, Germany, and Switzerland. It's been a full-on self-improvement journey--taking care of myself in every way. Truly happy.       :)       :)



Life is getting better and better all the time!! :)

Getting ready for Burning Man

It's that time again. Burning Man is August 29-September 5. Whether you're going or not, take a few minutes to learn from Halcyon's lesson on "gifting":

"Gifting" - by Halcyon from Belief Buffet on Vimeo.

Halcyon's Camp: http://pinkheartcamp.com/


Burning Man is the most important spiritual event of the year for me. This year tickets sold out. I bought my ticket the first day they went on sale. Many of the problem-makers get their tickets last minute, so I suspect this will be the best year ever. How exciting! I can't wait!!!

Fertility = $$ (Stripper study)

There was a study in the United States which proves that strippers make more money when they are ovulating.

These statistics are average earnings based upon working a 5hr shift:
while on her period = $185
normal part of cycle = $260
during ovulation = $335

While money varies dramatically depending on what part of the country you are in, I do agree with this study. I have personally experienced a huge difference in income depending on what part of my cycle I am in.

3 Rules + 3 Questions

Wanna Motorboat?

LOL, I love being silly. Life is meant to be enjoyed. Let's play!   *wink*

Girls Watch Porn

I'm not ashamed to admit that I love porn!


My favorite kind of porn is homemade. A few of my friends run their own homemade porn paysites. I love watching friends, and I support the making of homemade porn, so this month I've joined a few of their sites:

Trixie Fontaine = www.tastytrixie.com. Not only is she a Trixie, she also has HUGE natural boobs, is blond, smart, and we share many of the same fetishes. Access to her site gets you into her tranny girlfriend's site too: www.deliats.com!!

Naughty Allie = www.naughtyallie.com All I can say is WOW!! While not a stripper, she could easily work at any club: huge boobs, flat stomach, long blond hair. She is extremely sexy and dirty, and is a real life swinger.

Vanilla DeVille = www.VanillaDeVille.com Another real life swinger. Vanilla has been featured in Playboy Magazine and is a porn star. Gorgeous brunette with the most amazing ass ever! Not to mention, she is a total sweetheart.


Homemade porn doesn't get any hotter than this!! If I don't post any blog updates for a while, you'll know why.... ;)

Sex on the side

Just because someone is married, does that mean he or she should never have sex with anyone else again? Many would say yes, but I disagree. Marriage should be a beautiful symbiotic arrangement--not a prison sentence.



Men with young kids at home should strive to be the best dad possible by staying married and always keeping peace at home. Families require stability. Unless their wives are extremely open-minded, this means they are limited to a lifetime of monogamy or secret affairs.

For a married man to have a successful secret affair:
(1) He needs to have a job with varying hours. This allows plenty of time for a mistress without arousing suspicion.

(2) His mistress has to understand that he's married and be quiet when his wife calls. A husband not answering calls or refusing to talk is just plain dumb.

(3) He needs to only have safe sex or make sure that he and anyone he's having sex with has been tested for STDs.

(4) Never bring the mistress back to the family home. A wife would consider this the ultimate betrayal.

(5) Make sure the relationship is mutually beneficial. No drama--only fantasies, romance, and fun. The wife is the one he lives his daily life with. His mistress is his "secret get-a-way from reality" and he should spoil her generously.

(6) Hiring a professional call girl is the safest route. Wives often desire revenge against husbands who have other "relationships" on the side. Whereas, should he ever get caught, the wife is much more likely to forgive him for hiring a hooker.

Sometimes having extramarital affairs can enrich your marriage. Seriously. They remind you why you love your partner so much, and, by experiencing another, you can show that renewed sense of love when you get back home. The key here is to do it without risking your current relationship and lifestyle. This can be tricky.

Personally, I am polyamorous and am honest when I feel the need to go elsewhere. I also understand if a partner feels the need for variety. Nobody owns me and I don't own anyone else. Sadly, few people are able to be that honest within their marriages without their partner freaking out. :(

Gambling? VOIP? Privacy?

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I have been using a paid VPN service for several months. Since I travel worldwide, sometimes my VOIP service won't work. All I have to do is load up my VPN and "viola!" It works! Simple as can be and worth every penny. To learn more, click the banner below and choose which service best fits your specific needs. You'll be glad you did.

Happy Mother's Day

Is it more important for your children to fit your ideal "mold" or to be expressive people who are happy with themselves? As adults, do you still want to control their lives or trust them to make their own choices?

This video with Halcyon and his mother is perfect for Mother's Day:

Conversation with Mom from Belief Buffet on Vimeo.

If it wasn't for our parents (and grandparents), we wouldn't be the people we are today. Everybody grows up in different households. My parents are open-minded, tolerant, and understanding hippies--and taught me to be the same. I love that about them. Happy Mother's Day, Mom! I love you.

Meant to be single?

When I find a man I like enough to date, I can be very flirty and aggressive. Some men are suspicious and worry when it doesn't take a lot of work to win a woman over that she must not be worthy of being with. Either that, or they have such low self-esteem that they can't believe a beautiful woman truly likes them for them. Very strange. Luckily, since I don't want to be with a man so suspicious or with low-self esteem, my aggressive style helps to weed them out. :)

I am me, upfront, honest, and go after what I want in life. If a man doesn't have these same qualities, we probably won't be compatible. I certainly don't want to waste my time on someone who isn't totally into me. Why is it that people generally want to have to fight to win their partners? The way I look at it...if I have to convince someone to like me, we are not meant to be--and I move on.

Often I wonder if I am meant to be single. I'm not anti-relationship; I am picky. Trying to date is often too much drama and I hate drama. If I'm going to spend my time with someone, he needs to be worth it for me. I am not one of those women who hops into one relationship right after the last. During the past 10 years, I have been single for five, in serious relationships for four, and in an open relationship for one.

If my fuck buddy were local, I doubt I would try to date at all. While I don't mind being alone, my 10-speed purple vibrator gets old...

The Perfect Body

My computer wallpaper shows the body which I consider ideal:


Staring at her reminds and motivates me to eat healthy and exercise. Who is she? Her body is phenomenal.

When I quit smoking pot, I gained 10 pounds that I haven't been able to lose. Today is Renewal Day, and I'm committed to doing whatever it takes to get my model body back.

Water-fuel car unveiled in Japan

What ever happened to this? Did the oil companies threaten or bribe enough for it to go away? :(



I want one!

"Being a Whore On Easter"

No kids = finding out that it's Easter from Brittany Andrews Twitter feed.


As if it's so bad to look like a whore.... Not at all!

Whores take care of themselves, get lots of attention, are loved by many.


Have a happy--and safe--Bunny Day everyone! ;)

A Hooker's Easter - watch more funny videos

Karebears

April 20th is a day that stoners across the world celebrate because 420 is the "code word" for smoking marijuana. Even when I still smoked weed, 4/20 was a day that I took off from smoking. For me, it doesn't symbolize pot--today is the anniversary of when my little sister died.

While I have always been bright, she was much smarter than me. A true genius and very charismatic. When she was sixteen years old, she was the top telemarketer for a major company and earned $40,000/year working part-time. She started the GLBT student union at her high school. She went to the national finals for her school's mock attorney debate team. She had a 4.0. She was a stock broker at 21. Her accomplishments are too numerous for me to list.

We were rivals from birth. As we grew up, I playfully referred to her as "the bad sister" and she called me "mweanie" in return. I loved her dearly but, due to the competitive nature of our relationship, I could never express it. That is one of the few regrets in my life.



I knew when my 40 days of Lent started that today would be the big challenge. *sigh* Tomorrow would've been the last day, and today I masturbated twice. Doh! Was it because I am stressed with grief? Or because I went on a date yesterday and didn't even get a kiss? 39 days is still damn good, though, so I'm not too disappointed with myself. Next year I will do this again. :)

Weekend get-a-way

Yes, I am back stripping in Reno for the next few days. I love this club so much--much different than the Vegas vibe. Now that I have a Twitter account, I won't post club updates on my blog anymore (my normal blog posts will remain). You can either follow my Twitter account directly or you can always read the most recent posts on the widget on the right-hand side of my blog (underneath NORML and above Labels).


Come see me or my girlfriend Kimora.

Grandparents sometimes make the best mentors

My grandmother passed away today. She was 88 and my favorite family member. Such a feisty lady! Despite making an emergency trip to see her before she died, I did not make it in time. *cry*   I will be there for her funeral. This also allows me extra time to spend with my other family members whom I don't see often enough. My grandma was such a remarkable lady, and I feel blessed for all the time I've spent with her. She has been an inspiration for me. I love you grandma.

Charlie Sheen is living in an alternate reality

I was hoping that Charlie Sheen was a brilliant marketer. Unfortunately, he just posted this video on Twitter with the message, "This @charliesheen video made me laugh harder than the whole 8th season of 2.5 men":



The video wasn't funny and seems like a failing desperate attempt to hang on to fans. Realistically, showing off more of his awesome chest would work better. *wink*

It is now obvious that Charlie Sheen truly has lost his mind. It must be embarrassing to have such a public and well-documented meltdown. Unless something really newsworthy happens (commits suicide, ODs on drugs, or flies me to Hollywood), I don't plan to blog about him again.

Bi-Losing

From following the USATODAYLifelineLive twitter feed, it appears that Charlie Sheen totally bombed his first stand-up appearance. Any bets on how long will it take for a new "Bi-losing" song to hit YouTube?





** Added 8 hours later **

How many sex partners have you had?

Maybe it's natural curiosity to want to know.. I don't know. I've NEVER asked a sex partner how many there were before me. Why? It's none of my business!! Nor will I answer that question for anyone else.

Guys are so silly. Most of them want a girl who has only had sex with a few men. Because of this, the average woman will lie and say 3-7. Yet how quickly did she sleep with you? Some men believe that a woman should have sex with them within three dates. First of all, I completely disagree with this and usually hold off for months when I want to pursue a relationship with a man. Second, any guy who believes that a woman who slept with him so early has only had a few sex partners is lying to himself.

Get the numbers. A woman is 30. She claims she lost her virginity at 17 and that she has only had 4 partners. Most of her relationships have lasted 3 years. Hmmmm. 13 years divided by 3 equals 4.333. This is plausible enough for you to believe her. Now--really think about it. How long did she wait before having sex with you? Do you believe that every single guy she fucked was a good guy and serious about a relationship? Does she ever go out and party? Did she? Does she have any "bad girl" girlfriends?



Instead of caring how many sex partners your girlfriend had before you, all that you should care about is who she is fucking now. Is it only you? Do you care if she has sex with other people? Is she disease-free? If you both agree to the sexual terms of your relationship, nothing else should matter.

NEVER ASK QUESTIONS WHEN YOU ARE NOT PREPARED TO ACCEPT ANY ANSWER. Women: this goes for you too. Don't look down on a guy because he admits to having hired hookers. Most men have. Get over it. You should be grateful for his honesty. People are not born great lovers; it takes time and experimentation.

If your partner is good in bed without needing additional "training", consider yourself lucky and don't stress!

Selfless Act for Lent

I was thinking "I can't afford to donate, I'm barely making it right now." Then I looked down at my KFC tray and realized I'm just fooling myself. Even if it's just a small donation (like that of a single fast food meal), it all adds up. If you're reading this, even if it's just a dollar, HELP THEM OUT! They are good people with a quality message. :)

Happy Persian New Year!

This past weekend was awesome! I spent it in Panama with someone very special to me. Excellent trip, great food, nice weather. Somehow in 3 days we never found time for any tours. This was one of those weekends where everything was fun but little can be said. ;)

While gone, I received an email informing me that I was not selected for Round 3 of the Charlie Sheen's TigerBloodIntern--yes, I was one of the 74,000 people who applied. LOL.. However, I figured at some point they would check my blog and disqualify me. No big shock.


March 20th was Persian New Year. They celebrate for 13 days.

Some Nowruz celebrants believe that whatever a person does on Nowruz will affect the rest of the year. So, if a person is warm and kind to their relatives, friends and neighbors on Nowruz, then the new year will be a good one. On the other hand, if there are fights and disagreements, the year will be a bad one.As a extended tradition to the holiday, men may or may not choose to shave their faces until the night of the "New Day" as a sign of removal of old habits and tendencies and the rebirth of their faith and being.

The other ancient symbolic representation of NoRuz is based around the idea of the triumph of good over evil. According to the Shah-nameh (The Book of Kings), the national Iranian epic by Ferdowsi, NoRuz came into being during the reign of the mythical King Jamshid; when he defeated the evil demons (divs) seizing their treasures, becoming master of everything but the heavens and bringing prosperity to his people. To reach the heavens, Jamshid ordered a throne to be built with the jewels he had captured. He then sat on the throne and commanded the demons to lift him up into the sky. When the sun's rays hit the throne, the sky was illuminated with a multitude of colours. The people were amazed at the King's power and they showered him with even more jewels and treasures. This day of great celebration was named NoRuz, and was recognised as the first day of the year.

I am still trying to stick by my Lent rules. While I did have 2 Ginger Ales to calm my motion sickness from the tiny plane, I consider that more medicine than soda. Also, yesterday I had a brownie which was almost cake-consistency. I didn't know it would be that way before ordering and I did eat it. Other than these two circumstances, I have stuck by my Lent sacrifices: no masturbation, no soda, no cake. :)

Obama's Nobel Peace Prize Should Be Stripped

The Nobel Peace Prize
“The said interest shall be divided into five equal parts, which shall be apportioned as follows: /- - -/ one part to the person who shall have done the most or the best work for fraternity between nations, the abolition or reduction of standing armies and for the holding and promotion of peace congresses.”
(Excerpt from the will of Alfred Nobel)

In 2009 President Obama was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize "for his extraordinary efforts to strengthen international diplomacy and cooperation between peoples". Based on his continued war efforts, he does not deserve such an honor.

"Libya is not America's war. It is justified neither on security or humanitarian grounds. Nor can Washington, overwhelmed with current deficits and future liabilities, afford to be world's permanent 911 number." From: Americans appear wary over U.S. role in Libya

Every man I like is different

Most people have a set "type" of person who they are attracted to. That doesn't apply to me. Every man I've been with is completely different than every other. With one exception--and he was a combination of everyone I had dated (weird, right?). I like variety.

Since I started attending adult entertainment conventions, I've been physical with only a few men in the industry.

Richard Young - He and I seriously dated for awhile. Not casual at all.

Roy Karch - We have always been good friends and dated briefly.

Jason Quinlan - Since 2005, Jay has been my default go-to guy whenever I've been single. We've never dated and there's no drama; we are fuck buddies--nothing more. Pretty impressive in the sack and always makes me squirt. If you have ever wondered why he gets so much pussy, he DESERVES IT!

someone else who shall remain nameless - I was horny, Jay was unavailable, this man was in town. A random industry hookup--not something I do.

Despite working as a stripper for years, I can be shy when it comes to my personal life. Most of the men I've had mini-crushes on never knew:
(A couple are taken. A few are missed opportunities. Some still make me wonder...)
Huda Mahdi - Absolute gentleman. He is awesome; the type of man one hopes to marry. Of course he lives half a world away and already has an incredibly gorgeous girlfriend. She is a lucky lucky girl.

Mackenzie McAleer - Handsome, intelligent, ex-pat with a zest for life. HOT!

Brad Mitchell - LOL, Brad. Totally the kind of geek I would date. He's been on my Yes list for a long time but, since he's married, I've kept my distance.

Vid Vicious - I have so much respect for this man. One of the few exceptions to my "no casual sex" rule...I would do Vid. Always a complete gentleman.

Charles Michael - We have been flirting for years. He's smart, cute, funny, and a gentleman. I could seriously date him. Too bad he lives in cold Canada.

Kevin Blatt - We have tons in common and mutual interests. With all the hours we used to chat on the phone, yeah, I'm curious...

Halcyon - Back in the day I would've jumped at the opportunity for a threeway with Tassy and Halcyon but never got the chance.

Lance Harrell - Total cutie! We are into a lot of the same things sexually. Unfortunately, we know each other too well to date or play. *sigh*

Dave Urban - So gorgeous that I can barely speak in his presence.

Marc Womack - Had I been single, I probably would've offered up a threeway with him and Shey. He just oozes "good in bed"; so does she.

Christopher Keller and Mike Tompkins - Both are too young for me to pursue, but in masturbation land they are my boy toys.


Do I stay single because of shyness? Not at all. I enjoy being single.
For me to get in a relationship, that person has to be someone I like "as-is".

If I have to change someone, then it won't work (for either of us).
This is why I like to know someone well before we move forward.


It isn't fun being surprised with incompatibilities after it's too late. That said, even the majority of the men on my crush list are not men whom I would actually date.

Lent cleansing

Not only am I not a Christian, I don't believe that Jesus Christ ever existed. So why am I posting about Lent? Lent is a time for spiritual cleansing--which is beneficial no matter what your faith (or lack of).

From Wikipedia: There are traditionally forty days in Lent which are marked by fasting, both from foods and festivities, and by other acts of penance. The three traditional practices to be taken up with renewed vigour during Lent are prayer (justice towards God), fasting (justice towards self), and almsgiving (justice towards neighbour). Today, some people give up a vice of theirs, add something that will bring them closer to God, and often give the time or money spent doing that to charitable purposes or organizations.

What will I do different during Lent?
Lent started this year on March 9; I just heard about it so I am starting today. Daily chanting of my mantra and meditation will be a priority. For the fasting aspect, I am giving up masturbation, soda, and cake. In addition, each day I will do at least one activity to selflessly help others.

As I follow this rule I find that I am letting go of old mortal beliefs and the Divine within is flaming higher and higher. Its pure white light is infusing all my surroundings with a delightful spirit of wisdom, dignity, and peace. I realize more and more the law or righteous thinking that is bringing me into a consciousness of my perfect dominion.

My 40th day will be April 21st.

Self-medicating Millionaires

How much of what we see on the media is real Charlie Sheen and how much is the spin created to make him look crazy? They edit out the normal.



I've never met Charlie but I recognize the path. Even his rants sound familiar.


Charlie Sheen reminds me of a very sweet ex-boyfriend--one of the few men whom I believe truly loved me. Like Charlie, my ex was an extremely successful "winner" who had more than enough money to buy anything he could ever want. Well, *almost* anything. Money can't buy lasting happiness from within.



Sadly, he self-medicated to such an extreme that, in 2005, he died at the young age of 47. A drug test wasn't done but I'm sure he would've had large amounts of cocaine, at least a .2 BAC, Xanax, Cialis, and marijuana in his system (at a minimum). All of his fame and fortune couldn't save him.

If Charlie doesn't start making better choices, I worry that he will end up with the same fate within a year. In my opinion, he hasn't totally lost his mind like Mel Gibson did...but his partying has caused a downward spiral that will be tough to reverse. I hope he is able to heal himself and live to become an even greater man.


There is another possibility that nobody is mentioning -- this could be an intentional marketing ploy.

What would be worth giving up $2 million an episode for? By Charlie Sheen going from being famous to infamous, now EVERYONE talks about him every day; he is on all the tv channels and gossip magazines, has millions of twitter followers, and thousands of people are blogging about him. Brilliant!! If this was a well thought-out deliberate plan to counter the negative Kacey Jordan press then he is even more of a genius than anyone has given him credit for.

GO Trixie Racer GO!

So, almost 8 months after I started trying to get my name back on Twitter I have opened an alternate account. I'm probably a better blogger since I much prefer expressing myself without limitation, so...we'll see how it goes.

Kacey Jordan's betrayal of her client, Charlie Sheen

Charlie liked to hire hookers. On my 22nd birthday I hired my first hooker and have done so many times since, so this makes sense to me. Hiring hookers isn't as much about the sex as it is paying for the woman to leave afterward. Really.
It is paying for fun without any drama. Simple. No late night phone calls, no stalkers, no regrets.

There is a big difference between a private hookup and paid sex.
Paid sex implies discretion.

Kacey Jordan gives hookers everywhere a bad name. As "paid entertainment" she should NOT have went to the media. Charlie Sheen even overpaid her fee several times over. Instead of being appreciative, she's choosing to blab everything to the entire world. Hopefully all of her other clients have taken notice and stopped seeing her. She is a disgrace to the whole industry.

Stifled Voyeur

There is a lady at work who has such a sweet behind that I always catch myself staring at it. In the conservative world this behavior is not okay so I totally have to fight my urges to ogle.

In the adult world I could walk up to her and say:

"Wow! You have an amazing ass!"

And, instead of being sued, slapped, or fired, she would respond back with, "Ahh, thank you sweetie! I love your breasts!"

From there, we may exchange numbers for a later play date. *REMINDER* "I only have casual sex with women"

Over the years a few of my friends have even performed private masturbation shows just for me using their webcams. YEAH BABY! Whether I'm turning around to watch a man's face as I grind on his lap during a dance, surfing porn, or watching a XXX show, being able to see the sexual pleasure of others is really a turn on for me. The closer, the better.

While I love my new job....there are many things I miss about adult. The mainstream world isn't the same.

02-21-2011

Dates are fun. I love when they repeat. Isn't today Presidents' Day?

Today is a day for love and lovers.

Luckily, I love myself! ;)

Today marks 1.5 years alcohol-free. Woo hoo!



And for those of us with a sick sense of humor:


Happy Valentine's Day!!

Legionnaires disease?!?

Conventions have convention parties. Some are more fun than others. I have personally attended a few at the Playboy Mansion and those are always great. There are live concerts, celebrities, naked women everywhere, cocktails... The first time I went I made out with a super hot porn star in the grotto. The second time I went I was naked, wearing body paint. My third time I wore a long form-fitting gown.

There was recently another Playboy Mansion party for an LA convention which I've attended in previous years. This year 80 people from the party became sick, some of whom have been diagnosed with Legionnaires' disease. A news report from NY Post suggests that this outbreak may have been caused from the fog machine at the Playboy Mansion.

Based on how it's spread, through inhaling infected water, a fog machine could easily be to blame. Also, the grotto--while wonderful--is a closed-in very humid area.

Many of my friends were at this party so as soon as I heard about it I immediately googled Legionnaire's disease. The symptoms include fever, chills, headache, muscle aches, coughing, and fatigue. However, this isn't just a normal flu; people die from it with average fatality rate of 5-30 percent!!

Some who live in LA believe this outbreak is not the fault of the Playboy Mansion. They reported that there is currently a problem with Legionnaires' disease in Southern California. Very scary!

Life Changes

For those of you who have been wondering, I started the new job a few weeks ago. Depending on how it goes, this may be a permanent change. The corporate mainstream world is a difficult lifestyle adjustment after years of "play time"...so, even though I am no longer stripping, I will continue blogging.     :)

The US Goverment wants to extend the Patriot Act

"Sacrificing liberty for safety and security" goes against everything our Founding Fathers stood for. It is scary that our current government wants to take so much power away from us while trampling on our Constitution.

I know very little about Ron Paul except that he is against the Patriot Act.
Why aren't more politicians willing to stand up and defend the rights of the people?

The ACLU describes the three provisions that would be extended under the bill:

Section 215 of the Patriot Act authorizes the government to obtain “any tangible thing” relevant to a terrorism investigation, even if there is no showing that the “thing” pertains to suspected terrorists or terrorist activities. This provision is contrary to traditional notions of search and seizure, which require the government to show reasonable suspicion or probable cause before undertaking an investigation that infringes upon a person’s privacy. Congress must ensure that things collected with this power have a meaningful nexus to suspected terrorist activity or it should be allowed to expire.

Section 206 of the Patriot Act, also known as “roving John Doe wiretap” provision, permits the government to obtain intelligence surveillance orders that identify neither the person nor the facility to be tapped. This provision is contrary to traditional notions of search and seizure, which require government to state with particularity what it seeks to search or seize. Section 206 should be amended to mirror similar and longstanding criminal laws that permit roving wiretaps, but require the naming of a specific target. Otherwise, it should expire.

Section 6001 of the Intelligence Reform and Terrorism Prevention Act of 2004, or the so-called “Lone Wolf” provision, permits secret intelligence surveillance of non-US persons who are not affiliated with a foreign organization. Such an authorization, granted only in secret courts is subject to abuse and threatens our longtime understandings of the limits of the government’s investigatory powers within the borders of the United States. This provision has never been used and should be allowed to expire outright.

I was bummed when Dennis Kucinich dropped out of the Presidential race.
He would've been a President for the People.



Does blurring of our rights bother you? It should. The U.S. Government isn't even following their own rule book anymore. What makes the United States so special? It's the CONSTITUTION!! We need to protect it.

What is too far?

In January 2003 Dick Delicious and the Tasty Testicles became the first ever recipients of the Annual Howard Stern Award for excellence in the field of music. They are rude, funny, out of control, shock rock.

** WARNING: Their songs are obscene. Don't click unless you are over 18. Their previous albums include "Last Man in the Gangbang", "$400 Shuffle" (a song about coming up with money for an abortion), "Pruning the Bush", "I Wish I was a Dog"..


...fast forward to now...

Their most recent song has been leaked early before their 4th album release--just in time to cause controversy with today's Black Eyed Peas Superbowl show:


Is there such a thing as going too far? The first amendment protects parody speech and Dick Delicious and the Tasty Testicles is obviously that. While they may be over most people's line, it's still parody.

It's just that simple

Jupiter in Aries: Take a Leap of Faith!

It is shocking just how dead-on my horoscopes always are. I have many plans for these next few months. Starting with today... Go Jupiter!!

Jupiter, the visionary planet of idealism and optimism, is about to set up shop in Aries, the sign that gets things done. The move will occur on January 22 and last until June 4, so that's four-and-a-half months to dream big -- and go big.

When Jupiter and Aries became briefly reacquainted last summer, it gave you a taste of what this partnership could bring. Now, with Jupiter moving full-throttle into Aries, energies will come alive and help you create opportunities of a lifetime. Jupiter likes to take any energies it meets and expand them. This means that some of Aries' best qualities -- taking action, getting the job done and leading the way toward bigger and better things -- will be emphasized and become even more prominent in your day-to-day life. This will be an amazing time for you to truly shine and take your place at the helm.

On the other hand, Jupiter will also expand Aries' less-than-stellar qualities -- stubbornness, recklessness, taking things too far. Plus, there's that tendency to be overconfident and competitive, all while raising your fists and charging headlong into some holy crusade. Throughout all this, Jupiter will be right there to provide some sort of excuse as to why this aggression is okay - which of course it isn't. In fact, it's up to you to remember this, and to ensure you don't go overboard.

That said, this really is a great time to make something amazing happen. You know that enthusiasm you feel about your most creative projects? Grab it and run with it! During these next few months, you'll have a chance to do more than you ever dreamed possible. Taking a leap of faith can be scary … but it can also help you pull yourself out of a rut and get you moving along a new, exciting path.

So go ahead. Take a deep breath, close your eyes and jump. You might just find you can fly.

Source: Astrology.com email

SFO gets an "A" for hiring non-TSA security personnel

The San Francisco Domestic Airport hires outside contractors instead of TSA. Believe it or not, there is a huge difference! I went through the San Francisco airport today (with my cats). The man at the x-ray suggested I bring the cats into a private room so they couldn't escape while scanning my bags. What an incredible idea! With all the times I have flown with them, this is the first time ever that this has been suggested and allowed. TSA makes me juggle cats in each arm!

Like always, I opted-out of the radiation-rich, picture-taking, full-body x-ray machine. As I posted last month, this leads to an invasive groping search. This time my private female screener was courteous, polite, and respectfully walked me through the process. It did not feel like molestation and I didn't feel like she pushed beyond their legal rights. It was as good of an experience as being screened can be. So much so, in fact, that I am writing a letter to Covenant Aviation Security, LLC, so her good and appropriate behavior gets positive recognition. Hopefully more airports will get rid of TSA and hire private screeners instead.

Affiliate Ball

The Affiliate Ball was the final party for the conventions and Three 6 Mafia was playing. Like the ham I am, of course I got up on their stage and danced. So did about 50 other hot women mostly porn stars, models, and Vegas strippers.



The whole party was fun. I got to hang out with lots of friends and even made a few new ones. Here is a picture of me from the show (I have lots of pics but this is the one I know my readers would most like to see):

Sarah Peachez is gorgeous, totally sweet, an an amazing kisser.

Last night I arrived in Reno to dance for the weekend at Wild Orchid. Woo hoo!
Tonight may possibly be my last night stripping.

Me & My Ideal Partner 2011

Who I am: Playful, independent, highly sexual, no regrets, ex-pat, generous, spiritual, zest for life, not afraid to say “no”, follows my heart, non-smoker, self-respecting, loves unconditionally, open-minded, intuitive, jet-setter, comfortable talking about anything, shares, adventurous, self-thinking, lifetime student, love traveling, compassionate, childlike (not childish), enjoys helping others, romantic, good in bed, honest even when it hurts to be, sober, pretty, non-jealous, girly, computer geek, fit, genuine, old soul, enjoys reading, grounded, self aware, vain, happy, tenacious, intelligent, believes everything happens for a reason, loyal friend, motivated, realist, smiles and laughs easily, positive, healthy eater, sports fan, kinky, trustworthy, dog lover, cat owner, fair, logical, reliable, awesome boobs, thinks outside the box, one-of-a-kind, thoughtful, respectful, "show off", teacher, grateful, helps friends move, accepts people for who they are, sense-of-humor, values privacy, spontaneous, turns dreams into reality, liberal yet conservative, motherly, bisexual, confident, lovable, likes crossdressers, child-free.
Caution: high maintenance, clumsy, mildly bipolar, polyamorous, allergic to drama



Many people approach life-partner relationships as "This person likes me/is ok/attractive, let's see if it can work.." Not me. Just because someone is good enough to be my friend does not make him partner material. My standards are set high--too high some might think. There is no shortage of potential partners and I refuse to change someone to make him fit the mold I want. Doing so isn't fair to either party. There is someone out there who is already *exactly* the person I want and I am already *exactly* what he wants. When the time is right, we will find each other. Until then, I'll enjoy being single. No rush.

My ideal partner has these qualities: Genius intelligence, is my best friend, ex-pat mentality, knows and likes the true me, shares hopes and dreams, funny, honest even when it hurts to be, treats me as an equal, ethical, loves himself, has faith in me, thinks outside-the-box, successful, gentleman, makes me laugh, computer geek, generous, we talk about everything, speaks more than one language, always considerate of my feelings, zest for life, athletic, non-smoker, gives me space, worldly, open-minded, loves unconditionally, supports me mentally/physically/financially/emotionally, good in bed, spiritual, articulate, sense of humor, motivated, sincere, trustworthy, romantic, helps me better myself, spontaneous, likes cats & dogs, listens to me, teaches me, builds and repairs things, acts like a man and treats me like a lady, smart in ways I'm not, fair, includes me, takes chances, respectful, puts me in my place, likes to learn, high sex drive, reliable, family values, enjoys traveling, confident, cuddles, responsible, loyal, not jealous, healthy eater, protects me, stops me from eating cake
Deal breakers: Drug addiction, alcoholism, scares me, makes me feel bad about myself, lies, disrespectful, violent


This "Ideal Partner" posting has become a yearly tradition: 2008, 2009, and 2010. Each year I re-examine who I am and what I want out of life. The list gets longer and more focused each year. When I am interested in a man, I actually do a pro/con list for him too. By putting it all down on paper, it is easy to see which qualities I admire and whether he has any tiny red flags that shouldn't be ignored. (Usually it's an effective weeding out process.)


Last month I had a my horoscope done for 2011. Essentially it said I will remain single. That's ok. I like myself. :)


Wayseer Manifesto v1 by The Wayseers

Hustlers

Since the porn conventions are in town I am taking several days off to hang out with friends. Last night's party was at the new Hustler Club. Being inside a gentlemen's club totally puts me in my element. I wasn't stripping--I was there as a customer. Needless to say, I had a blast! The Hustler Club is Vegas's newest mega-strip club: multi-level with several stages going at once and hundreds of girls. It was a fun time. While I didn't bring my camera, several other people did. (Note: Cameras are NOT allowed in strip clubs. The private party I was with was granted an exception.)



There were a few Reno dancers at Hustler. It was great seeing them! I miss Wild Orchid so I may drive up to Reno next weekend to work.

The Game of Life

What determines whether or not someone is successful? Is it money? A great job? Possessions? A trophy spouse? Kids?
There are winners and losers in the game of life. Losers, while often successful, spend their lives pretending to be who others expect them to be. Winners celebrate their individuality and live their dreams.

People say that life doesn't come with a road map. Yes it does! The signs are as clear as can be when you look for them. That's the problem, often people don't want to look. I mean REALLY LOOK. It's easier to believe what we want to believe or what we were taught...but that doesn't make it the truth. Who are you at your core? What do you really want in life? What steps will get you there? Deep inside you know; pretending otherwise is what messes people up inside. Stand up and live! Claim yourself every step of the way. Be the person who makes you most proud.