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Saturday, September 27, 2008

I am a sex addict too

Choke came out yesterday. I want to go see it.

Sex-addiction theme of ‘Choke’ holds Rockwell’s interest

Despite the tabloid headlines that surround celebrities treated for sex addiction, Sam Rockwell, who plays such an addict in “Choke,” knows the condition is far from glamorous.

“I did some research,” Rockwell said. He met a sex therapist and “went to some sex-addict meetings, anonymously most of the time,” in New York and Los Angeles.

Unlike alcoholism, “It’s more like an eating disorder because it’s emotional rather than physically addictive,” he discovered.

Rockwell was up for the demands of his role with lots of - simulated - sex. “It was tricky and it was pretty silly stuff,” he said. “Just not erotic at all.”

Known for playing quirky characters such as game-show host and alleged CIA agent Chuck Barris in “Confessions of a Dangerous Mind” and wily Charley Ford in “The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford,” Rockwell calls his character Victor “a comedic Hamlet.”

“Choke” is, he said, “kind of the comedic psychoanalysis of a Casanova. We find out what it is really like to be a Casanova instead of glamorizing it. If you meet a real ladies man, they’re usually not incredibly good-looking guys. They’re usually pretty empty inside. That’s because this kind of thing is fun for a while and then it turns into an empty pit.

Article URL: http://www.bostonherald.com/entertainment/movies/general/view.bg?articleid=1121602

Friday, September 26, 2008

I miss her

Today would've been my little sister's 28th birthday. It's been a tough day, most of which spent alone. At 5pm I picked my ex up at the airport. He took me to dinner, then we came back home where we cuddled, played for awhile, and made love. Somehow that helped.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Came back to Atlanta for my cats

I love Atlanta and want to stay! The people are nice, the weather is great. The only bad thing is that we are out of gas. Really! Today I waited at a gas station for over a half hour to fill up and feel lucky I was able to get gas at all. The station had a $30 maximum. Many others have a 5-10 gallon maximum. As I drive through the city, more than half of the gas stations are closed. It is scary.

On a side note, even though my ex has a girlfriend we've been continuing to have sex. Seems appropriate since previously she had been the "other woman". It's almost like we're still together..

Friday, September 12, 2008

Hurricane Ike

I am in Texas, luckily nowhere near Houston but we may still lose power. My parents live here and I flew in yesterday to visit. Talk about timing! I pray that the hurricane does as little damage as possible. Scary that it's headed straight for the 4th largest city in the US.


16 minutes ago

HOUSTON - Hurricane Ike, a colossal storm nearly as big as Texas itself, battered the coast Friday, threatening to obliterate waterfront towns and give the skyscrapers, refineries and docks of the nation's fourth-largest city their worst pounding in a generation.

You can track the storm in real-time here: http://hosted.ap.org/dynamic/files/specials/interactives/hurricanetracker07/index.html?SITE=YAHOO&SECTION=HOME


Monday, September 8, 2008

Twelve hours and several bruises later...

...I finally finished unloading the moving truck. I am exhausted! Unfortunately, my body is too banged up now to go to work (including a huge lump on my forehead!).

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Happy Anniversary

Today would've been the one year anniversary of my ex collaring me. He celebrated by spending it with the woman he cheated on me with throughout our relationship. Tomorrow I unload the moving truck and officially start living in Vegas again.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

The Ethical Slut

Recently I went to Burning Man. It was so much more amazing than I imagined it could be. It can be compared to a Grateful Dead show on steroids--a huge party with unlimited drugs, alcohol, and sex. People are free there to be whomever they want. There are seminars and classes for all types of self-realization and skills. Lots of people in drag, wearing costumes, and completely naked. Totally enlightening.

The classes I attended were primarily adult in nature. Bondage, S&M, polyamory... It was at a class where I first heard of the book "The Ethical Slut". Immediately upon leaving Black Rock City I drove straight to Borders and picked it up. It became a top priority in my life as I read and highlighted with a quickness. How exciting to learn about a different type of lifestyle; one I agree with completely. Monogamy has always been difficult for me but--unlike most people--I have always been honest with my partners when I step outside the relationship. This is the basis of the book--being polyamorous while being honest and ethical. People should be who they are without misleading or deceiving others. This is me.

Random life update:

Back in June I started drinking and smoking again. While I don't like drinking, after I've had 3 or 4 I just keep going. Until I learn what moderation means, I cannot indulge. And I'm realistic enough to know that I may never know what moderation means. :(
I'm willing to bet that I am one of the only people to ever use Burning Man as a jumping off point for sobriety. Haha.. BUT I DID!! The last time I drank was on August 22 and the last time I smoked weed was August 24. Yeah! :)

My ex offered to pay half the moving cost if I want to move back to Georgia. He and I are still talking (and f*cking) and are on good terms. Not sure yet if I'll go. Financially it will be a huge burden to leave Las Vegas. Updating my resume today and applying for "real jobs" locally. Need to decide soon.

Next week I go visit my mother. Her health isn't good. I recently got to spend 5 wonderful days with my grandmother. It's important for me to see those people who may not have much longer in this world. No regrets.

Talking to a long lost friend. A few years ago my sister and boyfriend both died within 6 months of each other. Why is it that people lash out on those whom we value the most? Both of us were at fault to some degree but he saw a side of me that I am truly ashamed of. It's taken a few years for me to finally realize how much of it was me. Luckily, he understands and has accepted my apology. Making amends is important. Karma is important.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Is this another sign?

The Best Cities For Singles

Atlanta tops our annual ranking of America's best places to live on your own.

For the first time ever, Atlanta tops our list of the best cities for singles. The capital of Georgia and home of Coca-Cola earns the top slot because of its hopping nightlife, relatively high number of singles and sizzling job growth.

To those who know "Hotlanta," the ranking should come as no surprise. In the eight years that we have been ranking America's largest urban areas in terms of their friendliness to the nation's 74 million single adults, only once did Atlanta place outside the top 10.

To determine which U.S. cities are most comfortable for soloists, we ranked the 40 largest urbanized areas in mainland America in seven different categories: number of singles, nightlife, culture, cost of living alone, job growth, online dating activity and coolness. To determine a city's cool factor, we partnered with Harris Interactive, who conducted a poll, asking, "Among the following U.S. Cities, which one do you think is the coolest?"

Last year's winner, San Francisco, came in second this year, scoring particularly high in coolness (third out of 40) and culture (fourth). Overall, the coolest city was New York, while Midwestern fly-over cities like Indianapolis (40th) and Columbus, Ohio, (35th) did poorly on the Harris poll.

Overall, New York ranked as only the eighth-best place for would-be lovers. In addition to its top score in coolness, the Big Apple was ranked as the city with the best nightlife and the third-best cultural resources. But young singles need to eat as well as party, and New York scored dead last in the cost-of-living category. The city also placed a mediocre 29th in terms of job growth. Economic factors have always kept New York out of the top spot on our list.

The nation's second-largest city, Los Angeles, came in 16th this year, a precipitous drop from its third-place finish in 2007. Blame the cost of living in sun-drenched SoCal and a lackadaisical online dating culture.

Jacksonville, Fla., ranked dead last this year, scoring poorly in all categories except online dating, where it ranked seventh. Providence, R.I., last year's loneliest city for singletons, fared better, tying with Memphis, Tenn., and Cincinnati, Ohio, for 33rd place. Religious Salt Lake City, a perennial at the bottom of our list, comes in 39th this year. Mormonism's hometown is penalized for its lack of available singles (39th), dismal nightlife (39th) and its square image (coolness: 38th).

Some surprises: Orlando, Fla., which had never placed in the top 10 before, came in ninth place. Minneapolis-St. Paul hadn't made the top 10 since 2002 but came in third this year. The Twin Cities scored well in culture (ninth) and online dating (sixth) and ranked surprisingly high in coolness (eighth). Perhaps some respondents thought the Harris poll was asking about the weather.

Our rankings are meant to be a guide for young, ambitious singles who, in an age of techno-mobility, can live and work wherever they want. Our methodology focuses on career-minded, "never-marrieds" under the age of 35. Older singles, divorcees, widows and widowers might find slightly different criteria more relevant to them.

Source: http://promo.realestate.yahoo.com/the-best-cities-for-singles.html