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Jupiter in Aries: Take a Leap of Faith!

It is shocking just how dead-on my horoscopes always are. I have many plans for these next few months. Starting with today... Go Jupiter!!

Jupiter, the visionary planet of idealism and optimism, is about to set up shop in Aries, the sign that gets things done. The move will occur on January 22 and last until June 4, so that's four-and-a-half months to dream big -- and go big.

When Jupiter and Aries became briefly reacquainted last summer, it gave you a taste of what this partnership could bring. Now, with Jupiter moving full-throttle into Aries, energies will come alive and help you create opportunities of a lifetime. Jupiter likes to take any energies it meets and expand them. This means that some of Aries' best qualities -- taking action, getting the job done and leading the way toward bigger and better things -- will be emphasized and become even more prominent in your day-to-day life. This will be an amazing time for you to truly shine and take your place at the helm.

On the other hand, Jupiter will also expand Aries' less-than-stellar qualities -- stubbornness, recklessness, taking things too far. Plus, there's that tendency to be overconfident and competitive, all while raising your fists and charging headlong into some holy crusade. Throughout all this, Jupiter will be right there to provide some sort of excuse as to why this aggression is okay - which of course it isn't. In fact, it's up to you to remember this, and to ensure you don't go overboard.

That said, this really is a great time to make something amazing happen. You know that enthusiasm you feel about your most creative projects? Grab it and run with it! During these next few months, you'll have a chance to do more than you ever dreamed possible. Taking a leap of faith can be scary … but it can also help you pull yourself out of a rut and get you moving along a new, exciting path.

So go ahead. Take a deep breath, close your eyes and jump. You might just find you can fly.

Source: Astrology.com email

SFO gets an "A" for hiring non-TSA security personnel

The San Francisco Domestic Airport hires outside contractors instead of TSA. Believe it or not, there is a huge difference! I went through the San Francisco airport today (with my cats). The man at the x-ray suggested I bring the cats into a private room so they couldn't escape while scanning my bags. What an incredible idea! With all the times I have flown with them, this is the first time ever that this has been suggested and allowed. TSA makes me juggle cats in each arm!

Like always, I opted-out of the radiation-rich, picture-taking, full-body x-ray machine. As I posted last month, this leads to an invasive groping search. This time my private female screener was courteous, polite, and respectfully walked me through the process. It did not feel like molestation and I didn't feel like she pushed beyond their legal rights. It was as good of an experience as being screened can be. So much so, in fact, that I am writing a letter to Covenant Aviation Security, LLC, so her good and appropriate behavior gets positive recognition. Hopefully more airports will get rid of TSA and hire private screeners instead.

Affiliate Ball

The Affiliate Ball was the final party for the conventions and Three 6 Mafia was playing. Like the ham I am, of course I got up on their stage and danced. So did about 50 other hot women mostly porn stars, models, and Vegas strippers.



The whole party was fun. I got to hang out with lots of friends and even made a few new ones. Here is a picture of me from the show (I have lots of pics but this is the one I know my readers would most like to see):

Sarah Peachez is gorgeous, totally sweet, an an amazing kisser.

Last night I arrived in Reno to dance for the weekend at Wild Orchid. Woo hoo!
Tonight may possibly be my last night stripping.

Me & My Ideal Partner 2011

Who I am: Playful, independent, highly sexual, no regrets, ex-pat, generous, spiritual, zest for life, not afraid to say “no”, follows my heart, non-smoker, self-respecting, loves unconditionally, open-minded, intuitive, jet-setter, comfortable talking about anything, shares, adventurous, self-thinking, lifetime student, love traveling, compassionate, childlike (not childish), enjoys helping others, romantic, good in bed, honest even when it hurts to be, sober, pretty, non-jealous, girly, computer geek, fit, genuine, old soul, enjoys reading, grounded, self aware, vain, happy, tenacious, intelligent, believes everything happens for a reason, loyal friend, motivated, realist, smiles and laughs easily, positive, healthy eater, sports fan, kinky, trustworthy, dog lover, cat owner, fair, logical, reliable, awesome boobs, thinks outside the box, one-of-a-kind, thoughtful, respectful, "show off", teacher, grateful, helps friends move, accepts people for who they are, sense-of-humor, values privacy, spontaneous, turns dreams into reality, liberal yet conservative, motherly, bisexual, confident, lovable, likes crossdressers, child-free.
Caution: high maintenance, clumsy, mildly bipolar, polyamorous, allergic to drama



Many people approach life-partner relationships as "This person likes me/is ok/attractive, let's see if it can work.." Not me. Just because someone is good enough to be my friend does not make him partner material. My standards are set high--too high some might think. There is no shortage of potential partners and I refuse to change someone to make him fit the mold I want. Doing so isn't fair to either party. There is someone out there who is already *exactly* the person I want and I am already *exactly* what he wants. When the time is right, we will find each other. Until then, I'll enjoy being single. No rush.

My ideal partner has these qualities: Genius intelligence, is my best friend, ex-pat mentality, knows and likes the true me, shares hopes and dreams, funny, honest even when it hurts to be, treats me as an equal, ethical, loves himself, has faith in me, thinks outside-the-box, successful, gentleman, makes me laugh, computer geek, generous, we talk about everything, speaks more than one language, always considerate of my feelings, zest for life, athletic, non-smoker, gives me space, worldly, open-minded, loves unconditionally, supports me mentally/physically/financially/emotionally, good in bed, spiritual, articulate, sense of humor, motivated, sincere, trustworthy, romantic, helps me better myself, spontaneous, likes cats & dogs, listens to me, teaches me, builds and repairs things, acts like a man and treats me like a lady, smart in ways I'm not, fair, includes me, takes chances, respectful, puts me in my place, likes to learn, high sex drive, reliable, family values, enjoys traveling, confident, cuddles, responsible, loyal, not jealous, healthy eater, protects me, stops me from eating cake
Deal breakers: Drug addiction, alcoholism, scares me, makes me feel bad about myself, lies, disrespectful, violent


This "Ideal Partner" posting has become a yearly tradition: 2008, 2009, and 2010. Each year I re-examine who I am and what I want out of life. The list gets longer and more focused each year. When I am interested in a man, I actually do a pro/con list for him too. By putting it all down on paper, it is easy to see which qualities I admire and whether he has any tiny red flags that shouldn't be ignored. (Usually it's an effective weeding out process.)


Last month I had a my horoscope done for 2011. Essentially it said I will remain single. That's ok. I like myself. :)


Wayseer Manifesto v1 by The Wayseers

Hustlers

Since the porn conventions are in town I am taking several days off to hang out with friends. Last night's party was at the new Hustler Club. Being inside a gentlemen's club totally puts me in my element. I wasn't stripping--I was there as a customer. Needless to say, I had a blast! The Hustler Club is Vegas's newest mega-strip club: multi-level with several stages going at once and hundreds of girls. It was a fun time. While I didn't bring my camera, several other people did. (Note: Cameras are NOT allowed in strip clubs. The private party I was with was granted an exception.)



There were a few Reno dancers at Hustler. It was great seeing them! I miss Wild Orchid so I may drive up to Reno next weekend to work.

The Game of Life

What determines whether or not someone is successful? Is it money? A great job? Possessions? A trophy spouse? Kids?
There are winners and losers in the game of life. Losers, while often successful, spend their lives pretending to be who others expect them to be. Winners celebrate their individuality and live their dreams.

People say that life doesn't come with a road map. Yes it does! The signs are as clear as can be when you look for them. That's the problem, often people don't want to look. I mean REALLY LOOK. It's easier to believe what we want to believe or what we were taught...but that doesn't make it the truth. Who are you at your core? What do you really want in life? What steps will get you there? Deep inside you know; pretending otherwise is what messes people up inside. Stand up and live! Claim yourself every step of the way. Be the person who makes you most proud.

Here comes Santa Claus

The most recent bra I bought is a 34F! Are the sizes getting smaller or are my breasts growing? ;)



Have a wonderful and safe holiday week!!

Soon I need to decide which life path I want moving forward

Websites that want to make money have affiliate programs because it is the easiest form of marketing. So, why didn't my pin-up site have one? The most obvious answer applies here: money wasn't my motivation. (!) Rather, I got off on knowing that the men who joined my site were men whom I personally handed my card to (maybe even lapdanced for). It is a huge turn-on to know that people you've met in real life are masturbating while fantasizing about fucking you. Really. That is HOT!! And the sexual charge I got was worth more to me than any extra money I would've made.

When I strip, I do so for similar reasons. Stripping is a fantasy job. Men compliment me all night, appreciate my teasing them, and then go home and masturbate while thinking of me. It's kind of like being a 15 year old girl again, except it's a legitimate job which pays handsomely. WOW! The more money I make, the sexier I feel... And...the sexier I feel, the more money I make. It doesn't get better than that!
Those who know me laugh about how rarely I actually work. To give my readers a good idea, I usually post on my blog when I am going somewhere to strip. Vegas is my primary workplace but some small town clubs are more enjoyable (Wild Orchid in Reno is my current favorite, Big Al's in Peoria is second). This is a social job, I love the interaction, and always keep a spare bikini and set of high heels in my car. When the mood strikes, I'm prepared!       ;)

Most importantly, stripping is "fun" and not "work". Whenever it has began to feel like work, I've stopped. The more carefree I approach it, the easier it is to make money. I'm not there to work--I am there to PLAY. Attitude is everything.




My real background is marketing and HR. Can you visualize me as the Marcom Manager of a Fortune 500 company? What about the top sales executive for a well-known publication? I have been both. Corporate life isn't for everyone and I generally prefer the flexibility and control of being self-employed.

Recently I was offered another full-time permanent position working at a conservative corporation. This is a good opportunity for me. If I take it, Trixie must disappear. No more stripping, no more adult conventions, possibly even no more blogging. Am I ready to give this up? They requested I start in mid-January.

If I turn down this job, I will likely step up my adult work. What would that mean exactly? It could be stripping on a more regular schedule, maybe doing porn, possibly escorting.. I haven't decided yet. No matter what I choose to do, I will enjoy myself. I'm a strong believer in "He who enjoys life, wins at life".


Decisions.... Decisions....

Well, I can honestly say I had one of the best birthdays of my life!

Nobody would believe what actually happened so I will just quietly smile and keep it to myself..

Twenties?

Chocolate for breakfast. Yummy! There is no better way to start the day (well, other than morning sex). Today is my birthday and a friend is making sure I have a very special day.. ;)                    (Thank you!)


Should I start lying and saying I'm 29? Or go big and say I'm 21? lol..

eclipsed

Isn't it strange how one day will be so great and the next your whole world can crash down? The greatness is still there but the new negative consumes all your thoughts.



Everybody goes through times in their lives when they need a friend to lean on. Right now is one of those times for me. Today I received horrible news. Unfortunately, the majority of my closest friends are too messed up to be supportive. Most of my life whenever I've needed someone to lean on I've been alone (Summer of 2009 was an exception). There is nobody around again but the main difference this time is that I am sober and plan on staying so. I pray that is enough to keep me strong...

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

In My Sights

Getting sober was a neccessary step to lining up my life. I always knew that. Now I am focused, happy, and living my dreams. It is time to compliment my emotional/mental/physical happiness with financial success!

On December 5, as the new Moon rises in Sagittarius -- the Archer -- it's time to take aim at your most ambitious goals and fire! A direct hit is finally within your reach.

And that's just the beginning. Later that very night, retrograde Uranus will finally go direct again, while on the 7th, fiery Mars will move into calculating Capricorn. These three events acting on top of each other are a trifecta of opportunity. You'll feel the benefit of their activities so much more when you take the initiative into your own hands.

A new Moon is always a good opportunity to start something new, and with optimistic, adventurous Sagittarius in your corner, it's time to shed any doubts or questions slowing you down. There's no time like the present to see how much you can accomplish.

Uranus is the ruler of out-of-the-box thinking. You've probably had some plans and ideas brewing in the background for the last couple months as Uranus took a backwards stroll in Pisces. Now, as the planet moves forward again, it urges you to do the same. It's time to stop meditating about your ideas and turn them into reality!

To help seal the deal, Mars, the planet of action, will immerse itself (and you!) in get-the-job-done-right Capricorn. Mars would encourage you to leap before you look, but Capricorn is the sign of practicality. When combined, the two work together to help you move toward your target in a forceful, yet prudent manner. You'll be more likely to achieve your goals if you're realistic about what you can accomplish.

So what does all of this mean? Well, obviously, it's time to take action! Whether you go for something big, like a career change, or just decide it's time to clear the clutter from your space so you can think more clearly, you couldn't ask for a better time to get the job done.

Just remember that if you make your move on these three particular days, it's not just your goals you can reach -- it could be your dreams!

Source: Astrology.com email

Government Mandated Sexual Assault

How far is too far?



Think this is unrealistic? Unfortunately, it's happening already. :(

When I went through security and received the "enhanced pat-down", it did NOT make me feel safer in any way. Instead, I felt violated as I was completely groped: my ass, breasts, and pussy were all felt up by the screener. This is sexual assault legalized and accepted by our government.

How much worse can it get? Really? What if our government starts requiring strip searches?



Most people are sheep who follow orders from authority figures without questioning. The McDonald's incident 5 years ago is proof of that:


The Nazis were just following orders in their time under the directive of "Fatherland Security". Our current state of government is making too many parallels.

Betrayal

Betrayal creates drama and I won't tolerate drama.

"Betrayal is the breaking or violation of a presumptive contract, trust, or confidence that produces moral and psychological conflict within a relationship."

How do you react when someone you love betrays you? That depends on your self-esteem and stability. The right thing to do is walk away--even when it hurts.

People don't betray those whom they love. If someone betrays you, he doesn't care as much as you might want or hope for him to. This is true! Pay attention to actions as they are always more revealing than words.

What a revelation it is when you realize someone is not who you thought they were. When all the confidence you've given that person was in vain, you question your past and future ability to judge others worthy of your trust.. This causes grief while making you feel sad, ashamed, mad, and afraid. A rainbow of pastel emotions.

Unfortunately, someone I love dearly betrayed me: the one person I trusted more than anyone else in life. This came as a huge shock and slap in the face. When given the opportunity, he admitted fault but refused to fix it. So even though it hurt, I ceased contact.



My spiritual adviser, coincidently without me even telling her what happened, could sense I was unhappy and sent me this:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.

Happy Thanksgiving

Today I celebrated my second Thanksgiving. The first was nontraditional: clams, salmon, lamb... Today's was turkey, stuffing, sweet potato casserole, ... YUMMY!

As I look back on my life, I have risen, fallen, and risen again. I am so grateful to have real friends who helped pull me through when I was unable to do for myself.

Here is a snapshot of my past few Novembers:
One year ago: http://trixieracerblog.blogspot.com/2009_11_01_archive.html
Two years ago: http://trixieracerblog.blogspot.com/2008_11_01_archive.html
Three years ago: http://trixieracerblog.blogspot.com/2007_11_01_archive.html

Thank you to all my friends and family for being part of my life. I am grateful to all of you. Most importantly, thank you to the universe for always providing what is needed at the time. Now I am pursuing my dreams without limit. Even when my goals seem unrealistic, I get it done. I am confident, strong, and can accomplish anything. Ask anyone who knows me! I am happy to be a part of this world.

Moving Forward, as predicted

In line with the current horoscope, these dates are all exact. Something significant happened October 8th, today (November 7th), and I have things scheduled for November 8th/18th/29th and January 13th. This all makes sense to me.

Does it for you?

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On November 7-8, following right on the heels of the New Moon in Scorpio, Neptune goes direct, Venus moves into her home sign Libra, and Mercury moves into enthusiastic Sagittarius -- all marking a shift of energies in the universe!

Neptune rules the world of the unseen and the hidden -- our dreams, our imagination, our subconscious, and our imagination. It also influences our psychological and spiritual make-up. Neptune has been retrograde in Aquarius since May 31, and this should have been a period of self-introspection. As Neptune turns direct, we have hopefully been able to figure out what is truly going on in our inner selves, and this will help us make better decisions as we move forward in our outward lives.

Venus, the planet of love, which has been retrograde in Scorpio since October 8, now reverses back to Libra, the sign of its ruler, on November 7 for a brief stay until November 29, when it moves back into Scorpio to stay there until January 13, 2011. Venus also turns direct on November 18.

Take advantage of the next twelve days to build harmony into your relationships which is what Libra really, really wants. Spend the next few days reflecting upon how you can move towards a better understanding in all your relationships. Think of the ways you can be more considerate and understanding and how you can nurture your relationships. You'll also want to party, indulge and spend on extravagances since Libra is a very outgoing and expensive sign. But wait until it goes direct, after which you'll have twelve wonderfully decadent days to really pamper yourself.

Mercury, the chatty and restless planet, moves into enthusiastic Sagittarius on November 8, as well, for a sojourn until January 13, which really suits this most mischievous of the planets. Mercury is a trickster of the zodiac, both communicative and ingenious. It is quick witted and sometimes sharp tongued. Since Sagittarius is notoriously outspoken, be on the lookout that you do not hurt sensitive feelings without intending to do so. This is also a time to boost morale and stay positive because Sagittarius, ruled by Jupiter, is also a great optimist. Use the energy to campaign for your cause and garner support from those around you.

Source: Astrology.com email

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On a side note, here is my Destiny Card for today:

The Seven of Diamonds The Millionnaire's Card The Seven of Diamonds is one of the spiritual money cards. When it appears we are always confronted with how attached we are to our money and given an opportunity to experience the real prosperity that comes with an attitude of gratitude. Whether it is about money, plans to make money, or love, situations will present themselves that test our faith in the abundance of the universe. By realizing and then releasing our fears, we can transform our attachment into total fearlessness and personal freedom.

Celibacy no more

Recently I had sex. I've missed sex for a long time. Now that I've had my itch scratched, I crave more. Those who have spoken to me know I'm a highly sexual person. Those who've experienced me know that that is an understatement. I enjoy sex...a lot. It's the act of sex which I enjoy. I'd rather fuck for 4 hours and not orgasm at all than have sex for 20 minutes ending with a great orgasm.

So, why did I stop having sex last year? Simple: to put an end to the drama in my life. Huh? Without a sexual partner, nobody was close enough to create drama for me. If someone tried, I'd just walk away.

How is now different? After removing the drama from my life and getting sober (14 months now!) I see the world clearly again. I know what I want out of life and what I don't. Just because sex is great isn't a good enough reason to date someone. I am not ready to be in a relationship with anyone and I'm also not a casual sex kind of girl...

Here are the only reasonable options I have been able to come up with to stay single AND get laid regularly:

(1) I could have a long-term fuck buddy. = I already have one and he is fun (will happily refer for hot females). He has been my default go-to guy for several years whenever I've been single (although obviously not during my celibacy stint).... He lives far away and never pressures me. Unfortunately, his availability is limited. Finding a quality replacement would be tough.

(2) I could be a porn star. = I have given this serious consideration. Fuck buddy sex is meaningless fun. Becoming a porn star would also bring fame and fortune. And since the sex would be for work, it wouldn't feel casual. Not to mention I have a lot of friends in this industry; if I decide to go this route it'll be easy.

(3) I could escort. = This is another scenario I have thought a lot about. My libido can easily handle four times per day. Escorting would combine the pros of having a fuck buddy (non-committal drama-free sex) with the pros of being a porn star (lots of cash with sex being justified as work). From working as a stripper and being an escort client for much of my adult life, I understand this business reasonably well. Realistically, I worry I'd get addicted to having sex so often and enjoy it entirely too much.

AVN is in a few months. I have a lot to think about....

Mars is in Sagittarius for the next 6 weeks

On October 27-28, Mars the planet of action and passion moves into fiery Sagittarius for a sojourn until December 7, 2010.

Suddenly, all bets are off and what had been kept firmly under wraps, stored away in private places and hidden by Mars in Scorpio will come flashing out in the open. Sagittarius, ruled by Jupiter, has a wonderful directness and enthusiasm about it. It is ever the sunny optimist. It encourages, it motivates, and it boosts our morale. It is also known for speaking its mind and is possibly the most honest sign of the zodiac. Discretion and tact are not Sagittarian virtues!

Action-oriented Mars gets a tremendous boost with all this inspirational energy and turns into a crusading fireball. Be prepared for things to get noisy over the coming weeks as strong opinions get voiced and heated discussions take place. However, there will be no lingering bad feelings or bitterness left, regardless of how strong the storm blows. The Fire energy holds no grudges -- it speaks its mind and moves on!

The time is right to inject more adventure into your life, double up on your sports and exercise regimes. This is the time to start thinking of the coming holidays and decide how to best spend your money -- wisely. This is also the time to start dreaming and planning for your next escape and getaway!

But, most importantly -- this is the time to speak your mind and be truthful!

Mars in Sagittarius will give you the courage to get your ideas and comments aired to a wider audience than usual. This is not the time to whisper your plans, dreams and ideas hesitantly in a loved one's ears -- this is the time to get out your megaphone and shout it from the rooftops! At least, you will be assured that you will get heard where it matters most. The forces of the cosmos are with you!

Source: Astrology.com email

Drama-free sex

Is has been said that a woman knows within the first 5 minutes whether or not she will have sex with you. This is not accurate. The reality is that a woman knows right away when she will NOT have sex with you. Otherwise, you go into a "Yes" or "Maybe" category. The immediate Yes list usually requires exceptional looks or tons of money. Expect it to take a lot of time and energy to turn a Maybe into a Yes. All the while, at any time you can screw up and re-categorize yourself to No. Once you're a No, that is permanent. It is a slippery line and you rarely get status updates.

If a woman does have sex with you, you are now on "the list". This means that whenever she gets horny in the future, she'll often choose from her list instead of a random new guy. Why? Two reasons: (1) Most women don't want to raise their number of partners; and (2) Sexual skill isn't as common as one would hope. For every 10 guys you have sex with, one may stand out as amazing in bed. It's always a gamble. This makes the repeat sexual encounter with a partner you've already been with, even if casual, much more enticing.

Where guys screw this up
If you've had sex with a woman in the past and she decides to fuck you again, appreciate it for what it is and DO NOT turn it into something it isn't just to continue getting laid. If both of you really like each other and want a relationship, great! To be sure, this should be discussed prior to sex--not in a post-coital afterglow.

If you were not a good "couple", don't entertain the fantasy of getting back together!! Approach the new sex as a fuck buddy situation and be grateful she chose you. Unfortunately, too many men think the woman will not choose him again if he is honest about this. If she already did, she is cool with sex-only with you and will respect you more for being upfront and not toying with her emotions. Soak it up, enjoy, and don't fuck up the scenario.

Pretending to want anything more (if you don't) is an invitation for heartbreak and drama. On the flip side if you want to see her more, after you've had sex is the time to bring it up. I say after because if she doesn't feel the same, discussing during will ruin the sex for her and will put you in the future No category. Pay attention to the signs; it's easy to figure out if she wants more. Honesty here is always respected.

Getting on the list - Staying on the list
So, you don't want a relationship but you want to have sex? As most guys know, getting in isn't always simple. To make it worse, it's easy for a Maybe to turn himself into a No. Believe it or not, most guys are pushy or come off as desperate, possibly without even realizing it. This rarely works. When it does the girl either feels date raped or she gave you a one-time pity fuck (if you are lucky).

Be fun. Women like to have fun. Make it clear upfront that you don't like drama but you do like to play (this could be a general statement, it shouldn't put her on the spot). The guy who shows interest in his actions without constantly bringing it up or being pushy has the greatest chance of becoming her next Yes.

Once there, to be her future go-to man, make sure you put on a performance in bed. If you fuck her brains out, she will call you again and again. Relationship not needed.