Soon I need to decide which life path I want moving forward

Websites that want to make money have affiliate programs because it is the easiest form of marketing. So, why didn't my pin-up site have one? The most obvious answer applies here: money wasn't my motivation. (!) Rather, I got off on knowing that the men who joined my site were men whom I personally handed my card to (maybe even lapdanced for). It is a huge turn-on to know that people you've met in real life are masturbating while fantasizing about fucking you. Really. That is HOT!! And the sexual charge I got was worth more to me than any extra money I would've made.

When I strip, I do so for similar reasons. Stripping is a fantasy job. Men compliment me all night, appreciate my teasing them, and then go home and masturbate while thinking of me. It's kind of like being a 15 year old girl again, except it's a legitimate job which pays handsomely. WOW! The more money I make, the sexier I feel... And...the sexier I feel, the more money I make. It doesn't get better than that!
Those who know me laugh about how rarely I actually work. To give my readers a good idea, I usually post on my blog when I am going somewhere to strip. Vegas is my primary workplace but some small town clubs are more enjoyable (Wild Orchid in Reno is my current favorite, Big Al's in Peoria is second). This is a social job, I love the interaction, and always keep a spare bikini and set of high heels in my car. When the mood strikes, I'm prepared!       ;)

Most importantly, stripping is "fun" and not "work". Whenever it has began to feel like work, I've stopped. The more carefree I approach it, the easier it is to make money. I'm not there to work--I am there to PLAY. Attitude is everything.




My real background is marketing and HR. Can you visualize me as the Marcom Manager of a Fortune 500 company? What about the top sales executive for a well-known publication? I have been both. Corporate life isn't for everyone and I generally prefer the flexibility and control of being self-employed.

Recently I was offered another full-time permanent position working at a conservative corporation. This is a good opportunity for me. If I take it, Trixie must disappear. No more stripping, no more adult conventions, possibly even no more blogging. Am I ready to give this up? They requested I start in mid-January.

If I turn down this job, I will likely step up my adult work. What would that mean exactly? It could be stripping on a more regular schedule, maybe doing porn, possibly escorting.. I haven't decided yet. No matter what I choose to do, I will enjoy myself. I'm a strong believer in "He who enjoys life, wins at life".


Decisions.... Decisions....