I am working at Wild Orchid in Reno

Beautiful club, very friendly dancers and staff.

Big Al's in Peoria is my Midwest club and Wild Orchid in Reno may become my primary west coast club whenever I'm not in Vegas.

$25,000 Reward Justice for Brandon

It's now almost been a full year since this innocent man was murdered and his killer is still at large.

He was a kind and peaceful soul (I am very close with his family). Please contact the police if you know anything and donate if you can.

For more information, video coverage, or to donate via Paypal please go directly to this website: http://www.justiceforbrandon.com/



Brandon Lee Evans, 20 years old, was a graduate of Scripps Ranch High School in San Diego. He decided to move to San Francisco in early November to attend college and pursue his interest in music. On November 29th, Brandon went to Golden Gate with some friends to listen to music. Near the end of the event, Brandon left the crowd to get his cell phone from his car. While he was gone, his friends thought they heard fireworks, but quickly came to realize the horror that it was actually gunfire. One of Brandon’s roommates rushed to see if his friend was okay. He was not. Sadly, Brandon had been shot in the back and died en route to the hospital.

Brandon’s mother and his two brothers would like to find justice. They have established a fund to raise money to post signs and billboards to advertise the SFPD Reward and are seeking contributions to assist with this costly endeavor. If you would like to help make this happen, please consider making a contribution to the fund. All amounts are appreciated and increase the chance of Brandon’s killer(s) being found.

Checks made payable to “Christine Evans for Brandon Evans” may also be mailed to:
Terri Dirkse, CPA
Attn: Justice for Brandon
10755-F Scripps Poway Pkwy #554
San Diego, CA 92131

People with information that might be relevant, should contact:
Inspector Brian Delahunty
(415) 553-1336
brian.delahunty@sfgov.org

No more procrastination here.

Removed this quote from my personal Myspace today:
"Procrastination is always a flaw I can fix tomorrow." Why?
Because I have CHOSEN! My dreams are my reality.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion 83% Stability 76% Orderliness 56% Accommodation 23% Intellectual 90% Interdependence 80% Mystical 80% Materialism 30% Narcissism 80% Adventurousness 70% Work ethic 90% Conflict seeking 10% Need to dominate 40% Romantic 60% Avoidant 10% Anti-authority 40% Wealth 10% Dependency 70% Change averse 50% Cautiousness 70% Individuality 90% Sexuality 60% Peter pan complex 30% Histrionic 50% Vanity 70% Artistic 70% Hedonism 10% Physical fitness 80% Religious 90% Paranoia 20% Hypersensitivity 76% Indie 90%

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Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic..

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:
social, outgoing, worry free, optimistic, upbeat, tough,
likes large parties, makes friends easily, rarely irritated,
open, enjoys leadership, trusting, dominant, thrill seeker, strong,
does not like to be alone, assertive, mind over heart, confident,
controlling, feels desirable, likes the spotlight, loves food,
social chameleon, hard working, concerned about others

Boston is realistic

Ok! Class is October 12 - November 6 so I expect to live in Boston October 9th-November 9th. The cat problem is resolved! My friend in Peoria offered to babysit them for the month. :)

As far as the money goes..... I need to come up with $3000 by September 28th to enroll in classes and buy airline tickets. Then I'll have another week to earn the additional $2500 living expenses and still arrive in Boston by October 9th. If I don't make all the money I need for living expenses by that time I can always strip while in Boston (this is last case scenario as I'd prefer to focus 100% of my attention on school). It may be tough but totally possible.

Tomorrow I leave for Burning Man. The soonest I can be back in Peoria is September 19th and only have 12 days or so before I'd have to leave to attend a wedding. Hmmmmm...... Should I stay on the West Coast and work in Vegas until Boston? That would maximize my earning days. Hmmmm...

I have a lot to think about. Most of my thinking time will be at Burning Man where I there is no contact with the "outside" world. Last year I learned a lot about my self during this week. This year I am using this time to do the same. By the end of the week I will know what is best for my future.

The Boston Language Institute

Leaving for Burning Man any day. Afterwards, I'm going to the Costa Rica Consulate in LA with paperwork to start the process for residency. :)

The only thing I still don't have is my TEFL certification. For the past year and a half I've been trying to coordinate with a school in Costa Rica with no luck. So...I researched online and found the perfect school for me...and it's it the U.S.--The Boston Language Institute.

Boston! This will be a fun adventure. :) July 4th 2005 is the only time I've ever been to Boston. Gorgeous city, friendly people. It will be fun to live there for a month. (Hmmm, where will my cats live while I'm in Boston?)

A leader in Teaching English as a Foreign Language (TEFL*), The Boston Language Institute offers a unique program for those interested in teaching English both in the United States and abroad. Since 1981, The Boston Language Institute has set trends in the field of language teaching and, since 2000, in the field of English language teacher training. Our program has been described by The Wall Street Journal as "...one of the better-known programs in the country."

The TEFL Certificate Program presents trainees with an opportunity to learn interactively through skill-building activities. Our highly-skilled and dedicated teacher trainers will work with you to identify your strengths and overcome your challenges as a teacher.

The small class size – 12 students maximum – coupled with the Institute's nearly 30-year commitment to client service allows for the unique level of personal attention that's a hallmark of our programs. At The Boston Language Institute, you will learn to create your own teaching materials as you present practice teaching sessions to actual ESL students. In addition, while learning how to teach the five unique skills of language acquisition, you will develop an effective classroom management style, review English grammar, explore Business English, investigate cross-cultural issues and hone job finding strategies, whether in TESL or TEFL.

Our internationally acclaimed TEFL Certificate Program is available as a 4-week intensive course. About 1200 people have completed our program and our graduates are teaching all over the world, forming a network of alumni at the service of more recent graduates.

The Boston Language Institute's internationally recognized TEFL Certificate is awarded at the completion of the program. In order to earn the certificate, you must attend and participate in all course modules, successfully teach six class hours and complete a final project, which becomes your portfolio. All graduates receive a letter of recommendation and ongoing career support.

Class dates:
October 12 - November 6
November 9 - December 9

The tuition, including all class materials and deposits, is $2,645.00.
It will probably cost another $2500/month for living expenses.

Since I am planning to dance this winter in Peoria, attending the Oct 12-Nov 6 class would be best.

I must do this. How do I come up with $5000?

New look?

("Enhanced" photo)

Worst Sin

Usually betrayal is where you believe someone is one way yet later find out they were lying, "wearing a mask" for you, or have multiple personalities.

That is why I love this video. Since I haven't seen the movie from which it was compiled, the words and images perfectly portray betrayal.




Someone I know once said that betrayal is the worst thing in the world. At the time I assumed he meant betrayal by another person and openly disagreed by saying "regretting not doing what you truly want to do" is the worst thing. We were both right. Betrayal is the worst.....yet betraying your true self is much worse than betrayal from another.

Yay for internet !!

I want to apologize for having such a long gap between this and my last post. For the past 6 weeks I haven't had internet access so for the next two weeks I will upload backdated posts to cover this gap. After that I will be off to Burning Man and then who knows where. This will be my second year and I am sooooooooo excited! Currently I am in Northern California visiting family and friends. Life is an adventure!! :)

Leaving Peoria

It was a wonderful visit. Big Al's reminds me of Crazy Horse Too: fun club, great staff. I enjoy it here so much that I'm planning to come back and live/work here.

Chicago

Over the weekend I went to Chicago for the first time. Highlights of the trip: Museum of Science and Industry and Lou Malnati's Pizza (recommend both!).

Peoria, Illinois

For the next month I'll be working at World Famous Big Al's!
It is a full nude full alcohol club.

Definition of integrity

Integrity comes from the Greek words 'integritas' and 'integra' meaning whole. It enters into any aspect of one's life. It's belief system without faltering no matter how dangerous, how unpopular the person makes themselves to others. It includes: sincerity, keeping one's word and agreements, honesty, truthfulness, ethics, fairness and justice, punctuality and never faltering for what one believes in. A quote regarding integrity is 'It is better to have an enemy who keeps his word, than a friend who does not.'

Life is too short to cheat yourself out of or waste on other people. Choose your friends and partners well. Integrity is mandatory.

Hold off on making any major travel plans today: too much is up in the air.

Sagittarius 11/22-12/21

It's a good time to bet on yourself -- you're in the right place at the right time, and ought to be able to get pretty far today! If it feels like a risk, you are almost certainly heading in the right direction.

Thank you

Secret Meaning

Expats in Costa Rica

Chapter 01 - Why Move To Costa Rica
Follow newly retired Andy and Fran on their mission of discovery as they make plans to move to Costa Rica.


Chapter 02 - Heading to Costa Rica
As they get ready to leave for the airport, Fran and Andy candidly discuss their plans and concerns regarding their anticipated move to Costa Rica.


Chapter 03 - The Due Diligence Tour
Andy and Fran begin touring Costa Rica's Central Valley as they do their due diligence in preparation for their move to the Central American country.


Chapter 04 - The Tour Rages On
The organized tour has comes to a close. Fran and Andy are now on their own. Their primary mission... secure their Costa Rican Drivers License.


Chapter 05 - The Klippers of Esparza
It was time to kick back and meet our new friends we met while researching this trip. Say hello to Deb and Rob Klipper of Esparza. You already know her as Gringatica2003 on the ARCR Forum.


Chapter 06 - Why Costa Rica
Andy and Fran candidly discuss some of their reasons for moving to Costa Rica as well as focusing on how to cope with being so far removed from friends and family.


Chapter 07 - Safety Concerns In Costa Rica
Andy and Fran discuss issues related to personal safety in Costa Rica.


Chapter 08 - Researching You Move To Costa Rica
Look before you leap! There is no subsitution for good research.


Chapter 09 - Healthcare Concerns in Costa Rica
The ability to retire at our age is 100% related to the cost of providing healthcare protection. In the US, the costs are too prohibitive. Our ONLY recourse is to retire in Costa Rica.


Chapter 10 - The Challenge of Transportation
Driving in Costa Rica (at best) is a challenge. Do you attempt the task of driving the crazy roads of Costa Rica or leave that chore to a professional?


Chapter 11 - Licensed to Drive
The continued adventures of Fran and Andy as they navigate their way to getting their Costa Rican drivers license.


No Chapter 12

Chapter 13 - It's always mañana in Costa Rica
If you are a Type A personality (like me) and you want to succeed in Costa Rica... better think twice and consider behavior modification!

What a healing trip it was! :)

While in Costa Rica I read 4 books, all of which were to improve my previous self. The Power of Now and An Open Heart are both spiritual books for improving your soul. While reading I highlighted them throughout -- making them my new bible equivalents.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion 70% Stability 90% Orderliness 62% Accommodation 38% Interdependence 56% Intellectual 66% Mystical 76% Artistic 50% Religious 90% Hedonism 23% Materialism 23% Narcissism 63% Adventurousness 76% Work ethic 90% Humanitarian 70% Conflict seeking 10% Need to dominate 36% Romantic 83% Avoidant 16% Anti-authority 23% Wealth 30% Dependency 63% Change averse 56% Cautiousness 50% Individuality 56% Sexuality 43% Peter pan complex 30% Family drive 63% Physical Fitness 90% Histrionic 50% Paranoia 23% Vanity 63% Honor 90% Thriftiness 70%

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Stability results were very high which suggests you are extremely relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:
clean, likes large parties, outgoing, makes friends easily,
optimistic, positive, social, high self control, traditional,
assertive, rarely irritated, self revealing, open, finisher,
high self concept, controlling, rarely worries, tough,
likes to stand out, does not like to be alone, semi neat freak,
fearless, dominant, trusting, organized, resolute, strong,
practical, craves attention, adventurous, hard working,
respects authority, brutally honest, realist, altruistic

The past doesn't matter. Life is always happening in the present.
I am consciously awake and aware!

Synergistic Union

By reading what I wrote it doesn't make sense how I stayed with my ex for so long. Hmmm.. Love is blind I guess. Now my eyes are open.

This is my attempt at getting my thoughts on paper (digital paper?) so I could better clarify within myself what I want in a man and what I expect in my relationships. Sort of an extended "My Ideal Partner" in an unusual format -- half personal ad, half love letter. I didn't write this for anyone in particular; I got the idea after reading Act Like a Lady Think Like a Man. It is not complete but a very good rough draft.

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You know what kind of man you are and know in your heart instantly when something is right for you. If you don't know yourself that well or are "unsure", then you are not the man for me.

Anything you've done in your past doesn't matter. We've both made mistakes in our lives. With me you start with a fresh slate. I expect the same. We are in the here and now and only move forward.

Who I am: self aware, honest even when it hurts to be, happy, tenacious, intelligent, zest for life, experienced, loves Costa Rica, old soul, enjoys reading, adventurous, confident, highly sexual, free and living day by day, non-smoker, motivated, romantic, loyal friend, lovable, smiles and laughs easily, pretty, realist, motherly, likes crossdressers, athletic, lifetime student, kinky, open-minded, likes sports, computer geek, submissive, generous, loving, trustworthy, likes dogs & cats, fair, optimistic, liberal yet conservative, bisexual, logical, reliable, awesome boobs, Dominant, enlightened, sober, independent, thoughtful, thinks outside the box, good in bed, one-of-a-kind, ex-pat mentality, teacher, loves traveling, grateful, helps friends move, respectful, sense-of-humor, spontaneous, spiritual.
Caution: think I know it all, need 10+ hours sleep per day, clumsy, high maintenance, irresponsible at times, talks too fast and too much, not organized, bipolar, ADD/OCD.


Do you want what I have to offer and are you able to live up to my expectations?


My ideal partner has these qualities: honest even when it hurts to be, is my best friend, respectful, we talk about everything, mental/physical/financial/emotional support, knows and likes the true me, loving, spontaneous, zest for life, treats me as an equal, always takes my feelings into consideration, helps me better myself, ex-pat mentality, genius intelligence, likes cats/dogs, listens to me, computer geek, teaches me, can make me laugh, builds and repairs things, thinks outside-the-box, acts like a man and treats me like a lady, worldly, smart in ways I'm not, includes me, takes chances, puts me in my place, likes to learn, high sex drive, reliable, family values, motivated, loves himself, enjoys traveling, athletic, same political beliefs, confident, romantic, good-in-bed, fair, loves unconditionally, shares hopes and dreams, cuddles, funny, responsible, generous, non-smoker.
Without any of these qualities: dishonest, lies, scares me, makes me feel bad about myself, insensitive, violent, drug addiction, alcoholic, disrespectful.


Trust, honesty, respect, and communication are the foundation of our relationship. We start as friends first. While I am looking for my life partner, it must develop naturally. Sex won't come early.

When we marry I expect to take your last name and wear it proudly. Divorce is never an option. While I won't be submissive outside the bedroom, I will always treat you as a man. I appreciate all the things you do for us, from sharing your most private feelings to repairing our house/cars and I tell you so. You appreciate that I want to look good for you and take care of myself and you compliment me regularly. We make love practically everyday for the rest of our lives.

We are each others best friend, sharing our good/bad news with each other first, you always protect me and I take care of your emotional and physical needs in return, we keep each other's secrets. It is us against the world forever. This is the real deal--partners in every sense of the word. We both put "us" before ourselves.

While I would prefer monogamy I am flexible on this. However, neither of us can ever go outside our marriage solo. In order to have sex with someone else, it must be a shared experience with someone who knows we are committed to each other and that they are only a sexual outlet. Threeways are ok, stepping out is not.

Will we have children? I don't know. At my age I only have a 30% chance of conceiving in any given month assuming we have sex on the most peak day. More than half of pregnancies miscarry before the woman even knows she's pregnant. If we manage to conceive and make it past the first month, my chances of miscarriage are 25% (again due to age). I would love to have a child but understand it may not be possible. This cannot be a deciding factor for our marriage. If we decide to have children and are lucky enough to be able to--great!

I promise to love you forever, support you, appreciate you, be loyal, honest, have an active sex life together, be your best friend, respect at all times, and be monogamous. My expectations for you are the same.

As you can see, I've put a lot of time and thought into this. I don't ever want to "settle" again. I want my soulmate.

"You are such a bastard"

'The Bachelor': We're Just Not That Into You


After 50 roses, weeks of speculation, plenty of spoilers and even a conspiracy theory or two, the most! historic! finale! ever! of ABC's "The Bachelor" ended Monday with 32-year-old Seattle account executive and single dad Jason Mesnick slipping a ring on the finger of 25-year-old Dallas sales rep Melissa Rycroft in New Zealand. Cue the violins and ring up the wedding planners, right? Wrong. You see, that just wouldn't be dramatic (or "historic") enough. So a mere hour later (actually six weeks in real time), during the "After the Final Rose" special, viewers watched as Jason shocked his putative fiancée when he told her that, well, he just wasn't that into her. Instead, he said, he still had feelings for the show's runner-up, Molly Malaney, a 24-year-old department store buyer from Michigan.

"You are such a b*****d," Melissa responded, "you should know better than to do something like that," perhaps referring to the fact that Jason had been humiliated on national television during last season's "The Bachelorette", when DeAnna Pappas rejected him. As for the unsinkable Molly, "This is something I dreamt of, but never expected to hear. I'm blown away right now," she told Jason. And then they proceeded to make out -- while millions of women across America immediately revised their feelings for the supposedly most likable Bachelor in series history.

Here's just a small sampling of what fans had to say in Television Without Pity's forums immediately following the three-hour finale. Jason, pray that your adorable little son Ty doesn't know how to use the Internet, because there's plenty more where this came from:

"Molly, you’re next. I give it a few months before he just has to follow his heart again (a.k.a. dump you)." – goddessrin

"It was all appalling on some level--was it necessary to do all this on the air--but I actually groaned, 'Oh, Molly,' when she started making out with him. Bad enough the way the whole thing played out, but to start with the face-sucking at that point?" – Kmax

"Melissa showed a lot of class." – 007Girl

"That was the biggest vat of Velveeta I've ever seen." – TooMuchFreeTime

"Am I the only one thinking that was totally fake? I had friends arguing with me on how real it is." – Laurie4H

"Jason is such a pig. Changing your heart is one thing, doing it on national television is another. AND hooking up with a girl within an hour of dumping your fiancée . UGH. I wish him much unhappiness." – Wrong Heaven

"I have never thought this before about her, but tonight I realized Molly is an actress. Her confused look when Jason told her he wants her back and everything after that was right out of a soap opera." – Carus

"I thought Melissa handled the whole thing great. She kept her dignity while also expressing what a bastard Jason is." – agockows

"Jason had every right to change his mind, but breaking it off in front of the cameras is a new low. Molly, congrats, honey. You 'won.' I think it'll become really clear really soon just what a 'prize' he isn't." – Mamabisi

"Molly is just a poor example of what unfortunately many girls have become these days. A boy does all the wrong things to someone else but maybe I can change him so I'm going to take him back because hey, I'M MOLLY and no guy walks away from me. Well, he did walk away from you and who's to say in six weeks he won't be backing up to call Jillian?" – nymetsgirl22

"Jason's 15 minutes for me expired about two hours ago. He's a loser. Molly's a fool for agreeing to anything other than a cup of coffee for old time's sake. There's no future in that relationship because, really, the guy can't tell the truth unless it's dragged out of him and that will destroy any relationship he's in." – becca656

"And total ewwwwwww when they started making out at the end. Yeah, Melissa's body wasn't even cold yet and they were pawing each other." – weezer95

"Jason, you have seriously underestimated how people will react to what you did just now but I suspect you'll find out quickly enough. Good luck, Molly! Oh, one other thing - consider this: Melissa will move on and find a decent guy who will treat her right. Meanwhile, every time you and Jason have problems or get into a fight, you'll be left wondering if his silence means he's thinking about how he made a mistake with you and regretting letting Melissa go." – The Closer

"As the single mom of 2 girls, who is getting back into dating after a divorce, it makes me SICK that he would bring Melissa into Ty's life for 6 weeks, including holidays, and then yank her out and bring Molly in. He didn't mention Ty ONCE tonight." – brgrayduck

"Jason needs therapy before he commits to anyone else. He's clearly very needy and confused, and should probably not be getting engaged to anyone at this point. I think he has maturity issues too." – DebbieM

Jason is such a jerk. How could he immediately go from breaking off his engagement with Melissa to kissing Molly mere minutes after? And no tears for Melissa, the woman he was just engaged to, while he had this huge emotional reaction after he rejected Molly?" – Coco79

"I honestly could not believe my eyes, watching that circus. I mean...do people have NO shame? To have these kinds of personal things televised? What have we come to? On the one hand, great drama to watch...on the other, I feel dirty for even participating." – PetuniaP

"I hope Jason's ex-wife is out hiring a lawyer to try to get full custody of Ty." – Whataconcept

"Wow, that was good television. I was genuinely surprised. I had the same freeze frame, deer in headlights look that Molly had." -- TrebledTimes

Source: http://tv.yahoo.com/blog/the-bachelor-were-just-not-that-into-you--159