I am ready to start dating again

Even before my first kiss, I read "Looking For Mr. Goodbar" and "Men in Love". Monogamy isn't natural so trust and honesty are key. The movie, "Chasing Amy", fits me and my life. I am grateful for all of my experiences and have few regrets.. In "The Banger Sisters", I am internally both women. "The Ethical Slut" is the handbook which best describes how I view relationships. Men who date me can never deal with the reality of who I was and am now. Lately, I have been seriously considering living as a lesbian.

In order to be anything other than just a fuck, I need to spend months getting to know the other person first. This is non-negotiable. My partner and I should be best friends. If we are best friends first AND have chemistry, everything else will be there.

I want a life partner; someone I can count on always.

F Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone!

Today is a good day. :)

Timing

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

I am a whoremonger at heart...

Organic

Today one of my best friends took me to the farmers market and bought me groceries as a birthday/Christmas gift. Good friends are hard to find and I have several. *smile*

Sliders

My truck isn't reliable so I've stopped driving it except to go to work. So since I'm stuck at home, today is my Sliders marathon day. I expect to have season one and two finished before I go to sleep.

Today is my birthday!

What am I doing? Nothing. Wish I had money to go somewhere. Wish I had gas to go somewhere. :(

Polyamory vs. Swinging

Most people don't understand the difference. "The Ethical Slut" is a great book to teach how to live the lifestyle in the healthiest manor possible with complete honesty. If you read what I have below (not related to the book) you will learn the difference between a couple that swings and one which is polyamorous.


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Compare and Contrast: Polyamory vs. Swinging

Polyamory is often compared to the swing or swinging lifestyle. They are both part of a broader lifestyle choice of 'open relationships'. Poly and Swing are similar in that they both can involve more than 2 people sexually, and they're open and honest - every one knows what's up. But there are some differences between the two lifestyles that are important to know when using these terms:

Sex vs Relationships: Swing is generally more about recreational sex and polyamory is more about loving relationships. In swinging, friendship is usually the deepest emotional connection that a couple allows with others (and that isn't a requirement for all swingers). Polyamory usually involves deeply emotional connections (love) with multiple people, and sex can (and usually is) an integral part of those relationships. Swinging is more like friends with benefits, whereas polyamory is more along the lines of having multiple boyfriends, girlfriends or spouses. In polyamory, you open yourself up to falling in LOVE with more than one person at a time. In swing, that's usually pretty threatening to the core couple.

Monogamy vs. Non-monogamy: Swinging, in many ways is still monogamously based. While sexual fidelity isn't a part of that monogamy... swinging is very couple-centric. A couple goes into it knowing that neither of them will fall for another person any more emotionally than friendship. Swinging is viewed as safe and non-threatening to the couple's emotionally monogamous relationship. Polyamory usually isn't approached from a couple-centric place. While couples may both date (even date the same person)... the relationships are viewed as individual relationships. In polyamory, you're much more an individual than identified with your relationship structure.

Discreet vs. "Out": Swinging is usually a discreet activity that a couple does on the weekends - whereas polyamorous relationship are part of every day life, and not an activity done from time to time. Usually polyamorous relationships are long term, and have a very regular component to them (daily/weekly, etc.). Polyamorous people usually have a desire to be "out" about their relationships (even if they can't be realistically) - because the people they're involved with hold a very important place in their lives and heart - equivalent to a spouse/partner/boyfriend/girlfriend. Poly people tend to want their partners to be with them for for major events - holidays, weddings, funerals, company picnics, etc. - as well as part of their every day life - grocery shopping, movies, hanging out, etc.

Swinging and Polyamory tend to have a lot of overlap, and there's not a distinct line between the two. I like to think of it as a continuum - and one end you'll find a few hard core swingers who have a lot of fairly anonymous sex, and at the other end you'll find polyfidelious polys who all live together in a closed relationship. But there's a heck of a lot colors in between the two to choose from. I've even heard of the term "Swolly" to define folks that are somewhere between swinging and polyamory. I know poly people who still swing, and I know swingers who have developed poly relationships. And I know plenty of folks who don't worry about the terms, and just go with the flow.

You don't have to choose one or the other - but they are not the same thing. It's important to be able to communicate with potential new partners about what you desire in relationships.

Source: http://www.serolynne.com/polyvsswing.htm

This made my evening

The girl at the beginning kicking the poor intern's balls is my friend Trisha Uptown. She is a sweetie. It isn't her fault. He painted a bullseye on his crotch and begged for it.

So I have a "real job" now

...working in marketing again!! Huge paycut but I'm so burnt out on stripping that I don't mind. I love my new job. As of next month I'll be able to support myself again. Things have improved so much in my life. I'm happy.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Gratitude. Thanksgiving is more than just "Turkey Day"; it is a day to be thankful for what we have. Even when things aren't ideal in your life, they can always be worse. Instead of focusing on the bad, be grateful for everything that is RIGHT.

My new plan

Always eat healthy
* NO MORE FAST FOOD!!
* Follow the "Eat Clean" Diet


Go to the gym 5 days per week
* 30 minutes of cardio minimum
* 30 minutes of weights or 45 minutes of sauna/pool
* One day per week take a class (yoga, bellydance)


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THINGS I MUST CHANGE
Stop having sex with my ex boyfriend
Stop reading the Craigslist Casual Encounters section
NO MORE FAST FOOD!! At all, none. No exceptions.


THINGS TO DO EVERYDAY
Meditate/pray for 15 minutes
Spend quality time with my pets
Read for 15-30 minutes
Eat healthy -- Eat "Clean"
* oatmeal/smoothies for breakfast
* Veggie wraps for lunch
* Fish/Chicken/Hummus with vegetables for dinner
Exercise for 30-90 minutes (weights, cardio, yoga/bellydance)
Work 8 hours (either at my job or at home unloading boxes, building websites, etc)
Get plenty of sleep so always well-rested and refreshed

Playing God: The Game That Keeps on Giving

Found this blog and it reminds me of someone. Wonder if he realized that this is how he acts. Anyway, here is the link: http://cruelvirgin.blogspot.com

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Playing God: The Game That Keeps on Giving

I'm finishing up teaching The Epic of Gilgamesh. Basically, it is about a man who plays God, then journeys toward reintegrating his humanity through a close friendship, war, angering the real gods and seeking out immortality via the lands of the dead. I tell my students: "Epics are very specific when it comes to humans and divinity. The gods always win. Don't even try to imitate them. Yet we all do so at some point or another in our lives."

How do you know when someone is playing God? Look for the following:

1. They think in terms of power, not responsibility.

2. They enjoy taking advantage of weakness.

3. They consider themselves superior to everyone else.

4. They do awful things to people because they know they can get away with it.

5. Since they are so busy playing God, they cannot identify with human pain or joy.

6. They forget that authority is a privilege, not a right.

7. They abuse the community instead of serving it.

8. They are probably among the loneliest people in life.


In The Epic of Gilgamesh, the king is a despot: he takes virgins from their husbands on their wedding night because the law allows him to do so--HIS LAW! He kills young men because it is fun. He oppresses the people so harshly that they cry out to the real gods for relief. Even though he is partly divine (his mother is a goddess), his fate lies with mankind, and it scares the shit out of him. What do frightened people do? They mask their fears by making others afraid.


I'm sure you all know folks like this. How many have a boss who believes he is God? How about a wife or husband? Children often think they are God. Celebrities are told they are God. We are saying goodbye to a president and sidekick who see themselves as God. Dictators play God. Eventually the real God will stand up and give these wannabes a kick in the pants, but the damage is done. I have found that these tyrannical junkies create 3 kinds of people: those who identify with the oppressor; those who choose to avoid the damaging behavior and those who become a hybrid of the two.


The first kind may repeat the patterns of their overbearing father or mother. The second kind may be so afraid of their id that they consciously devote themselves to selfless service. The third are the most dangerous because they aren't self-aware; they think they are nice people--perhaps they are, but these traits come out in insidious ways. A friend of mine stopped giving massages because she got too many men who asked her to scratch their face, twist their privates and so on. Their masochism became a camouflage for hurting others. A few assert authority through gossip; they smile at you, but behind your back, your name is mud--pretty soon everyone knows more about you than you know about yourself. Some see firearms as a source of power--I understand responsible gun ownership, but genuine power comes from within, not from an object that kills living things. I know way too many people who claim to own guns for protection, but they never go to the range to practice. They can't even tell you the kickback intensity of the weapon. They don't really want to shoot anyone, so they hope that the criminal will roll over and play dead once that mean machine enters the scene. I used to bug my husband about buying a gun until he said: "The only way I will ever train you to use a weapon is if you can convince me that you are ready to kill another person without hesitation--even if you are in the wrong." What? You mean like murdering people? "No," he said. " But you are ready to accept the consequences if the person you killed happened to be innocent."


Gilgamesh learned that he needed to serve his people, not scare them. Once he ceased to fear his inner demons, he learned compassion. All of us have the potential to play God. But we are better off leaving the job to the one who knows how to do it.

What do you say when someone dies?

So far during my life a handful of people whom I loved very much and were close to me have died. Most people don't know how to react after a death. Knowing now how to be a supportive friend through loss is an important social skill. Acting inappropriately can actually hurt the survivor worse.

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Words to Comfort Someone Grieving

It is interesting that the one thing we are certain about in this life is that it will end yet when that happens we are never prepared. Emotionally we just don’t seem to be well equipped to deal with such a loss, we either fall apart or head straight for denial. But, in reality, falling apart or going through denial is all part of the normal process of grieving. Grief is a normal, healthy response to loss and we need to understand how to best deal with it in order to provide comfort to someone who is grieving.

And, as a matter of fact, loss can come in many forms. As devastating as the death of a loved one can be, any life altering experience can trigger a sense or feeling of loss that will trigger the same sense of grief and will send that person through the same 7 stages of grief as experienced through the loss of a loved one. “Other losses include the loss of your health or the health of someone you care about, or the end of a relationship, such as a marriage or even friendship. Healing from a loss involves coming to terms with the loss and the meaning of the loss in your life.”

So the question is how do we deal with or what do we say to a close friend or family member who has just experienced a loss? Many of us have no idea what to say or how to handle the situation. It is difficult to know what words you should say to comfort someone grieving. I think it is natural to feel uncomfortable and unsure in this type of situation. We have so much fear wrapped up around death or any kind of loss in our society that it is difficult to know how to handle our own emotional response much less know how to support another person who is grieving. But, there are simple and effective ways to help someone who is coping with loss.

Below is a simple list of DO’s and DON’TS that you may find helpful when dealing with someone who is experiencing a loss:


DO:

Act natural. I know you may not feel comfortable but the more uncomfortable you are the harder it is on the grieving individual.

Allow the person to talk about his grief and express his or her feelings. Try to listen without offering advice or interrupting. The worse thing you can do is start talking about yourself. Focus on LISTENING and offer your love patiently and unconditionally.

Be patient with the grieving person's changing moods. It’s normal for someone who is grieving to alternate between anger, sadness, numbness and acceptance.” Give the person as much time as he or she needs to grieve. There is no time limit on grieving and telling him or her to 'get over it' or 'let it go' won't help him or her grieve any faster.

Show genuine concern and affection if the person seems open to it. Try offering hugs or an arm around the shoulder, as appropriate. If he or she seems uninterested or irritated don’t take it personally, it is a natural part of the grieving process.

Sometimes silence is what the grieving person wants. There is so much going on that a moment of peace and quiet can be the one thing they need. Sitting silently next to him or her and just being close can be very comforting.

Offer to help but be specific. It can seem overwhelming and stressful to have people keep asking what can I do to help you. When you are grieving you may have no idea what would be helpful or not. Because grief can be a confusing and overwhelming experience, suggest something specific. It is hard for many people to ask for help.


Be the one who takes the initiative to:

* Call from time to time and just to check in
* Offer to run errands or get groceries
* Drop off food don’t wait to be asked
* Stop by and baby-sit the kids
* Offer to go along to a bereavement group with them
* Go for walks or enjoy a physical activity
* Do a fun activity with them that you know they really enjoy maybe a game or going to the movies
* Encourage socializing but only when the person feels ready

Keep in mind how difficult holidays and weekends can be for them. Try to be available for support or just spending time with them on these days.

If you recognize that the grieving person is experiencing depression, urge him or her to get professional help. This is only if they seem unable to function in day-to-day life. You may want to help them set up the appointment and if they ask, go with them.

If you haven't already you may want to send some Flowers and a card it may seem like a small gesture on your part but it really means a lot to the person grieving.


DON’T:

Try to avoid the bereaved person. It only makes them feel more isolated and alone. This is a time that they need all the love and support you can muster. Try to put your personal discomfort aside and think about the other person.

Pry into personal matters. Allow the grieving person to share what they choose to and just be there to support them. You can ask questions but think before you talk!

Ask questions about the circumstances of the death. Talk openly about the person who passed but not necessarily the circumstances unless they bring it up.


DON’T SAY:

* "I know how you feel." Truthfully, you don’t know how they feel no one does whether you have been through a loss before or not! Don’t be surprised if the turn around and scream, “YOU don’t know how I feel, no one knows how bad I feel!”

* “You should.” or “Time heals all wounds.” offering advice or quick solutions just ends up frustrating and upsetting the grieving person.

* “At least he’s no longer in pain.” or “She’s in a better place now.” Or “It was God’s timing/will.” Trying to cheer the person up or distract from the emotional intensity only helps to prolong the grieving process and may even alienate them from you.

* “Oh, it’s not that bad.” Or “You’ll be ok.” Or “Things will go back to normal before you know it.” Or “It will get better." Grieving people know this intellectually, but in their heart, they may feel so lost and alone. These statements tend to minimize the loss and could upset the grieving person and they may even feel frustrated and angry with you.

* "Just call me if there is anything I can do." In the midst of grief, you just can’t think straight and you have no idea what you need. It’s up to you to call and if the grieving person does not want to speak with anyone, he or she will not answer the phone. If they don’t answer, the phone just leave a supportive message and let them know you are thinking about them

* "Don't cry." It is uncomfortable and painful to see someone you care about cry but telling him or her not to cry only prolongs the process and does not support the natural grieving process that needs to occur.


DO SAY:

* I am sorry
* Tell me how I can help; I want to be here for you.
* ___________ was a good person and friend of mine. I will miss him or her.
* Would you like a hug?
* Please tell me what you are feeling right now, I have never been through something like this and can only imagine.
* It's ok if you do not feel like talking right now. Just know that I am here to listen whenever you are ready.
* “I love you” (if you are close enough)
* talk openly and directly about the person who died

Supporting a friend or family member through the grieving process is one of the most selfless things you can do. It will never be forgotten and likely will help build a bond that will last a lifetime.

Source: http://www.healthy-holistic-living.com/words-to-comfort-someone-grieving.html

Prescription Drugs are out of control

Ive been off my anti-anxiety meds for over a month. At first it was tough, but lately I've been thinking clearer than I have in a long time.

Here is a great video everyone should watch about prescription drugs:

I need to learn this -- posting to remind myself

Get Organized
Get through the first month of any life change with tips from first30days.com.

5 ways to get started:

1. Set small goals.
Pick the area of your home that would bring you the most peace if it were organized. Is your closet in disarray? Is your junk drawer overflowing? If the task seems too big, break it down: Instead of tackling the whole kitchen, take it one shelf at a time. The sight of even a small clean space will inspire you to keep going.

2. Make a plan.
Create a vision of how you'd love the area to look. This mental picture will help you develop your action plan. Then, figure out how much time you can devote to the project, and stick to that schedule. Be ruthlessly honest with yourself about how much time you can give to the task and how long it will take.

3. Don't blame yourself.
You're not the only one drowning in clutter, so don't beat yourself up about it. Save your energy for making positive changes. If you catch yourself thinking a negative thought like I'm such a slob, replace it with something positive, like I'm taking control. Give yourself credit for trying.

4.Divide and conquer.
Sort your belongings into three piles: "toss," "keep," and "donate." If you're struggling with whether to keep a sentimental item you don't use, ask yourself, How will I feel next month if I give it away? And remember, sometimes the meaning is in the memory, not in the memorabilia.

5. Stick with it.
You did it! To stay organized, set rules on how you'll keep the area clutter-free. Maybe you'll declare the kitchen counter a sundries-free zone; maybe you'll vow to toss flyers twice a week. The more you stay organized, the more you'll feel like you own your space, instead of your space owning you.


Pulling It Together: 3 Questions for Ariane

Why is being organized so satisfying?
You can't control every part of your life, but you do have power over how organized you are, and it's satisfying to have a place where you don't feel overwhelmed. People often think, If I can't even find my keys, how am I supposed to handle anything else? When we are organized, we feel like our lives are in order too.

What can I do to achieve results that last?
Staying organized is about having an awareness of how much we want versus how much we need. As you're organizing, be aware of how many things you've used only once, twice, or not at all. Think of all the money you've wasted and keep that in mind the next time you're tempted to buy an item you may never use.

If I'm a disorganized person, can I really change who I am?
Absolutely. Everyone has at least one area of their life in control. Do you try to be punctual? Do you have your finances in check? You can carry over that skill. Start with one doable project, and bask in the feeling of success after you've nailed it. Remember, what you tell yourself can either limit you or set you free.

Source: http://www.redbookmag.com/recipes-home/tips-advice/how-to-get-organized?src=syn&dom=yah_buzz&mag=rbk&ha=1&kw=ist

Where in the world am I?

I am in Texas visiting family. My mother isn't doing well so this is a very important trip. In a few days I'll head back to Georgia again. I love it there so much. Vegas isn't a good quality place; Georgia is. Soon I need to take another international vacation for sanity, too. Costa Rica again? Or somewhere new? Where ever I go I should do it soon before I enter corporate world and will be unable to take time off work.

Officially quit stripping

That's right. I am done! :) Selling all my outfits today. It was a fun ride and I enjoyed making so many friends.

How to Feel Like Crap

This video goes over the top things to do to feel like crap.



Moderation is for sissies.
Avoid sunlight at all cost
Isolate yourself
Watch as much TV as possible
Spend all your time online
Avoid living things
Don't do anything creative or productive
Avoid all physical effort
Don't eat anything that grows in the ground
Eat as much fast food as possible
Don't ever get enough sleep
Don't drink water

Finally when you do all these things and become depressed, ask your doctors to put you on the latest antidepressant drug w/out giving up all the thing that make you feel like crap.

Tomorrow I fly back to Vegas

I will not have internet access there. :(

Sarah Silverman and The Great Schlep

The Great Schlep from The Great Schlep on Vimeo.

The Great Schlep aims to have Jewish grandchildren visit their grandparents in Florida, educate them about Obama, and therefore swing the crucial Florida vote in his favor. Don’t have grandparents in Florida? Not Jewish? No problem! You can still become a schlepper and make change happen in 2008, simply by talking to your relatives about Obama.

Football!!!!

Going to the Atlanta Falcons vs. Chicago Bears game today. Will update later.





It was amazing!!!!!



Georgia Dome

Bears score a touchdown with 11 seconds left to go!


One second left!


And Atlanta won!!!! WHAT A COME BACK!! Yeah!!!


Hang your heads low, Bears!

Sweet Home Atlanta

Flying back to Atlanta today. Hopefully to stay. We'll see.

New Zeitgeist Movie -- Zeitgeist: Addendum

I know this is two hours along, but it is ABSOLUTELY worth watching and may change how you view the world. Better yet, go to www.zeitgeistmovie.com and watch it full-size.

Life Lost

It is the 3 year anniversary of my ex-boyfriend killing himself. He was a really good man. Today also symbolizes why I will never have a child.

*sad*

Why I am always the girl who gets used?

The reasons differ but it's all the same thing....to raise self-esteem...to have fun with until they find "the one"...for sex...because I'm generous with my money/gifts...as a showpiece...to make another person jealous...just because!

It sucks. Makes me think it's not possible to find real love. Even true friends are hard to come by. Why can't other people be serious with their intent? Is all of life just one big game to see who you can get over on? Nobody ever explained those rules to me and I don't know how to play.

I am a sex addict too

Choke came out yesterday. I want to go see it.




Sex-addiction theme of ‘Choke’ holds Rockwell’s interest

Despite the tabloid headlines that surround celebrities treated for sex addiction, Sam Rockwell, who plays such an addict in “Choke,” knows the condition is far from glamorous.

“I did some research,” Rockwell said. He met a sex therapist and “went to some sex-addict meetings, anonymously most of the time,” in New York and Los Angeles.

Unlike alcoholism, “It’s more like an eating disorder because it’s emotional rather than physically addictive,” he discovered.

Rockwell was up for the demands of his role with lots of - simulated - sex. “It was tricky and it was pretty silly stuff,” he said. “Just not erotic at all.”

Known for playing quirky characters such as game-show host and alleged CIA agent Chuck Barris in “Confessions of a Dangerous Mind” and wily Charley Ford in “The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford,” Rockwell calls his character Victor “a comedic Hamlet.”

“Choke” is, he said, “kind of the comedic psychoanalysis of a Casanova. We find out what it is really like to be a Casanova instead of glamorizing it. If you meet a real ladies man, they’re usually not incredibly good-looking guys. They’re usually pretty empty inside. That’s because this kind of thing is fun for a while and then it turns into an empty pit.

Article URL: http://www.bostonherald.com/entertainment/movies/general/view.bg?articleid=1121602

I miss her

Today would've been my little sister's 28th birthday. It's been a tough day, most of which spent alone. At 5pm I picked my ex up at the airport. He took me to dinner, then we came back home where we cuddled, played for awhile, and made love. Somehow that helped.

Came back to Atlanta for my cats

I love Atlanta and want to stay! The people are nice, the weather is great. The only bad thing is that we are out of gas. Really! Today I waited at a gas station for over a half hour to fill up and feel lucky I was able to get gas at all. The station had a $30 maximum. Many others have a 5-10 gallon maximum. As I drive through the city, more than half of the gas stations are closed. It is scary.

On a side note, even though my ex has a girlfriend we've been continuing to have sex. Seems appropriate since previously she had been the "other woman". It's almost like we're still together..

Scary shit... but it COULD happen if we LET IT HAPPEN....

Money, Sex, Drugs, Rock 'N Roll, Power, Possessions

Hurricane Ike

I am in Texas, luckily nowhere near Houston but we may still lose power. My parents live here and I flew in yesterday to visit. Talk about timing! I pray that the hurricane does as little damage as possible. Scary that it's headed straight for the 4th largest city in the US.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/ike

16 minutes ago

HOUSTON - Hurricane Ike, a colossal storm nearly as big as Texas itself, battered the coast Friday, threatening to obliterate waterfront towns and give the skyscrapers, refineries and docks of the nation's fourth-largest city their worst pounding in a generation.

You can track the storm in real-time here: http://hosted.ap.org/dynamic/files/specials/interactives/hurricanetracker07/index.html?SITE=YAHOO&SECTION=HOME

Discussion

Twelve hours and several bruises later...

...I finally finished unloading the moving truck. I am exhausted! Unfortunately, my body is too banged up now to go to work (including a huge lump on my forehead!).

Happy Anniversary

Today would've been the one year anniversary of my ex collaring me. He celebrated by spending it with the woman he cheated on me with throughout our relationship. Tomorrow I unload the moving truck and officially start living in Vegas again.

The Ethical Slut

Recently I went to Burning Man. It was so much more amazing than I imagined it could be. It can be compared to a Grateful Dead show on steroids--a huge party with unlimited drugs, alcohol, and sex. People are free there to be whomever they want. There are seminars and classes for all types of self-realization and skills. Lots of people in drag, wearing costumes, and completely naked. Totally enlightening.

The classes I attended were primarily adult in nature. Bondage, S&M, polyamory... It was at a class where I first heard of the book "The Ethical Slut". Immediately upon leaving Black Rock City I drove straight to Borders and picked it up. It became a top priority in my life as I read and highlighted with a quickness. How exciting to learn about a different type of lifestyle; one I agree with completely. Monogamy has always been difficult for me but--unlike most people--I have always been honest with my partners when I step outside the relationship. This is the basis of the book--being polyamorous while being honest and ethical. People should be who they are without misleading or deceiving others. This is me.


Random life update:

Back in June I started drinking and smoking again. While I don't like drinking, after I've had 3 or 4 I just keep going. Until I learn what moderation means, I cannot indulge. And I'm realistic enough to know that I may never know what moderation means. :(
I'm willing to bet that I am one of the only people to ever use Burning Man as a jumping off point for sobriety. Haha.. BUT I DID!! The last time I drank was on August 22 and the last time I smoked weed was August 24. Yeah! :)

My ex offered to pay half the moving cost if I want to move back to Georgia. He and I are still talking (and f*cking) and are on good terms. Not sure yet if I'll go. Financially it will be a huge burden to leave Las Vegas. Updating my resume today and applying for "real jobs" locally. Need to decide soon.

Next week I go visit my mother. Her health isn't good. I recently got to spend 5 wonderful days with my grandmother. It's important for me to see those people who may not have much longer in this world. No regrets.

Talking to a long lost friend. A few years ago my sister and boyfriend both died within 6 months of each other. Why is it that people lash out on those whom we value the most? Both of us were at fault to some degree but he saw a side of me that I am truly ashamed of. It's taken a few years for me to finally realize how much of it was me. Luckily, he understands and has accepted my apology. Making amends is important. Karma is important.

Is this another sign?

The Best Cities For Singles

Atlanta tops our annual ranking of America's best places to live on your own.

For the first time ever, Atlanta tops our list of the best cities for singles. The capital of Georgia and home of Coca-Cola earns the top slot because of its hopping nightlife, relatively high number of singles and sizzling job growth.

To those who know "Hotlanta," the ranking should come as no surprise. In the eight years that we have been ranking America's largest urban areas in terms of their friendliness to the nation's 74 million single adults, only once did Atlanta place outside the top 10.

To determine which U.S. cities are most comfortable for soloists, we ranked the 40 largest urbanized areas in mainland America in seven different categories: number of singles, nightlife, culture, cost of living alone, job growth, online dating activity and coolness. To determine a city's cool factor, we partnered with Harris Interactive, who conducted a poll, asking, "Among the following U.S. Cities, which one do you think is the coolest?"

Last year's winner, San Francisco, came in second this year, scoring particularly high in coolness (third out of 40) and culture (fourth). Overall, the coolest city was New York, while Midwestern fly-over cities like Indianapolis (40th) and Columbus, Ohio, (35th) did poorly on the Harris poll.

Overall, New York ranked as only the eighth-best place for would-be lovers. In addition to its top score in coolness, the Big Apple was ranked as the city with the best nightlife and the third-best cultural resources. But young singles need to eat as well as party, and New York scored dead last in the cost-of-living category. The city also placed a mediocre 29th in terms of job growth. Economic factors have always kept New York out of the top spot on our list.

The nation's second-largest city, Los Angeles, came in 16th this year, a precipitous drop from its third-place finish in 2007. Blame the cost of living in sun-drenched SoCal and a lackadaisical online dating culture.

Jacksonville, Fla., ranked dead last this year, scoring poorly in all categories except online dating, where it ranked seventh. Providence, R.I., last year's loneliest city for singletons, fared better, tying with Memphis, Tenn., and Cincinnati, Ohio, for 33rd place. Religious Salt Lake City, a perennial at the bottom of our list, comes in 39th this year. Mormonism's hometown is penalized for its lack of available singles (39th), dismal nightlife (39th) and its square image (coolness: 38th).

Some surprises: Orlando, Fla., which had never placed in the top 10 before, came in ninth place. Minneapolis-St. Paul hadn't made the top 10 since 2002 but came in third this year. The Twin Cities scored well in culture (ninth) and online dating (sixth) and ranked surprisingly high in coolness (eighth). Perhaps some respondents thought the Harris poll was asking about the weather.

Our rankings are meant to be a guide for young, ambitious singles who, in an age of techno-mobility, can live and work wherever they want. Our methodology focuses on career-minded, "never-marrieds" under the age of 35. Older singles, divorcees, widows and widowers might find slightly different criteria more relevant to them.

Source: http://promo.realestate.yahoo.com/the-best-cities-for-singles.html

Burning Man

Leaving either later tonight or early tomorrow morning for Burning Man. This will be my first one. Totally not prepared. Wish me luck!

Moving Again

Today I finish packing the moving truck and leave Georgia. Think I'm better off remaining single...

Dating as a stripper

While I don't mean to sound negative, I have come to the conclusion that dating someone while being a stripper doesn't work. Even if you're willing to quit stripping (like I tried to during my last relationship) the guy will never trust you. He will always in the back of his mind suspect that you're being unfaithful. It's a sad reality...



My last boyfriend cheated repeatedly, I never did.

9/11 Facts

UNITED WE STAND

1) New York City has 11 letters

2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.

3) Rasmin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.

4) George W Bush has 11 letters.

5) The two twin towers make an "11"


This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets more interesting:


6) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.

7) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers.
9 + 2 = 11

8) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers.
6 + 5 = 11

9) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known.
9 + 1 + 1 = 11

10) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911.
9 + 1 + 1 = 11


Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:


11) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254.
2 + 5 + 4 = 11

12) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year.
2 + 5 + 4 = 11

13) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004.
3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11

14) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers
incident.
9 + 1 + 1 = 11


Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:
Now this is where things get totally eerie:


The most recognized symbol for the US, after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle.


The following verse is taken from the Quran, the Islamic
holy book:

"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace.
”

That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.


Still uncovinced about all of this..?! Try this and see how you feel afterwards, it made my hair stand on end:

Open Microsoft Word and do the following:

1) Type in capitals Q33 NY.
This is the flight number of the first
plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.

2) Highlight what you just typed and change it to font size 48.

3) Now change the font to “Wingdings”

Scary, huh?

When the place changes...

Don't you hate when the very best place changes? You know, the little hole in the wall mom-and-pop shop with food to die for.. My favorite delivery place of all time has recently changed. They raised their prices 20% while cutting down portion sizes about the same. Maybe the heat of the recession got to them and they are making a last ditch effort to not go under. But they are going about it all wrong; they've lost me as a loyal customer.

The Dresden Dolls

A few months ago I flew to San Diego to see The Dresen Dolls perform. It was completely worth the trip. They are really amazing and performed one of the better shows I've ever seen.

The Rise and Times of The Dresden Dolls EPK (Part 1 of 3)


The Rise and Times of The Dresden Dolls EPK (Part 2 of 3)


The Rise and Times of The Dresden Dolls EPK (Part 3 of 3)

Kayden Love

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Happy 4th of July!

Got invited out to see fireworks with a friend but I have to be asleep before it gets dark so I can work tonight. :(

Hope everyone else has a great 4th of July!

4L60E-HD2 Performance reprogramming kit

What is 4L60E-HD2 Performance reprogramming kit? Somehow this came up when I copied and pasted. It shouldn't have.

Imagine my surprise!

My mother called yesterday. A few weeks ago I mailed her an angel pendant. She hasn't been doing well at all since my sister's death and nobody else in the family will talk to her. Our conversation was pleasant. It's good that we're back in contact. :)

To the Rick who commented: You are by far the most talented photographer I've ever worked with. You deserve plenty of recognition and praise for your skills. After we lost contact, I didn't want to shoot with anyone else and haven't modeled since.

Considering I went through a tough period, I'm surprised to hear such kind words from you. Sorry for everything that happened between us. I am also very sorry to hear about your brother. Maybe you understand part of what happened to me. Hopefully you are surrounded by friends and family. Please email directly if you want to talk further; I do miss your friendship.

The Four Agreements

Lately I've been reading The Four Agreements. Excellent book. Different way of viewing life. It's tough work to implement but I am "doing my best".

This trip is going well. Not focusing on the money nearly as much as just going to work consistently and having fun. Both of which I am accomplishing!

In a silly mood.. Check this out!

By the way, to Rick: So few people know about this blog I was shocked to see your comment. It helped. Thank you for lifting my spirits. :)

Summer is here

I'm in Vegas to dance. After this trip I have no idea what my plans are.. Do I move to Costa Rica or do I stay in Atlanta? All the reasons I moved there for weren't real. Confusing, sad....

Dresden Dolls + Vegas

Tomorrow night I will be going to see the Dresden Dolls in San Diego. Don't know who they are? Watch: http://youtube.com/user/dresdendolls?ob=1


After the show I will be heading to Vegas to dance. This may be the last time before I re-enter corporate world. Come see me! :)

Not your typical Mother's Day

Looks like I may be moving -- AGAIN!

Arranging movers this week to come give estimates to move me away from Atlanta. Things didn't work out with the boyfriend here. Back to single life.

Trivia anyone?

Every single day you, unless you are already bald, will lose as many as 100 strands of hair – that’s 36,500 in a year. This is rather worrying as the average human scalp has 100,000 hairs.

A sneeze can blast out of your nose at a speed greater 100 mph

THE ASHES OF THE AVERAGE CREMATED PERSON WEIGHS 9 POUNDS

The human body can survive longer without food than without sleep. While starvation takes a few weeks you would die after about 10 days without sleep.

An average human drinks about 16, 000 gallons of water in a lifetime.

Babies are born with 300 bones, but by adulthood we have only 206 in our bodies.

Your heart beats some 37,000,000 times in a year. During your life it’s will beat some two-and-a-half billion times.

Every square inch of your body is populated by an about 32 million bacteria.

Your largest internal organ is the small intestine at an average length of 20 feet. If cut into pasta size pieces it would serve four.

85% of your brain is water.

Three-hundred-million cells die in the human body every minute.

The largest human organ is the skin, with a surface area of about 25 square feet.

Humans shed about 600,000 particles of skin every hour - about 1.5 pounds a year. By 70 years of age, an average person will have lost 105 pounds of skin.

Humans shed and regrow outer skin cells about every 27 days - almost 1,000 new skins in a lifetime.

It takes 17 muscles to smile --- 43 to frown.

The average duration of sexual intercourse for humans is 2 minutes.

It is impossible to kill yourself by holding your breath.

The human heart creates enough pressure to squirt blood 30 feet.

You blink about 84 million times in a year.

When you sneeze, all bodily functions stop-- even your heart!

40 people are sent to the hospital for dog bites every minute.

Babies are born without knee caps. They don't appear until they are 2 -6 years old.

In the course of a lifetime the average person will grow 2 Metres of nose hair.

Ladies in nudist camps tend to use more makeup than ladies elsewhere.

A team of medical experts in Virginia contends you're more likely to catch the common cold virus by shaking hands than by kissing.

The human tooth has 55 miles of canal in it.

Nerve impulses to and from the brain travel as fast as 170 miles per hour.

People have legs of slightly different lengths.

The average cough comes out the mouth at 60 mph.

Men / women The average person speaks about 31,500 words per day.

Most dust particles in your house are made from dead skin.

It is estimated that at any one time, 0.7% of the world's population are drunk.

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4/20 snapshot

Even though my ex-boyfriend and I broke up, I am still living with him in Atlanta until we can afford to move me. Since I gave up my Vegas condo to be with him, when I move I will be moving outside the U.S and living as an ex-pat.

Today is the anniversary of my little sister's death. We were never very close but I miss her incredibly.

It is also 4/20 day. I haven't smoked yet today and I'm not sure if I will. While I am quite the pothead, today may be better spent in reflection. We'll see...

I may stop dancing and modeling soon and get a "real job". My background is in marketing..

While the Speed Racer movie is coming out in a few weeks, I just don't feel happy like I should...

Big Brother watching you order a pizza

As privacy becomes less and less, this could become our future.... http://aclu.org/pizza/images/screen.swf

Can you imagine?

WHAT IS MARRIAGE?

A 30 point answer:

1. Marriage is not a word. It's a sentence (a life sentence).

2. Marriage is love. Love is blind. Therefore marriage is an institution for the blind.

3. Marriage is an institution in which a man loses his Bachelor's Degree and the woman gets her masters.

4. Marriage is a three-ring circus: engagement ring, wedding ring and suffeRING.

5. Married life is full of excitement and frustration: In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens.In the third year, they both speak and the NEIGHBOUR listens.

6. Getting married is very much like going to a restaurant with friends.You order what you want, and when you see what the other person has, you wish you had ordered that instead.

7. There was this man who muttered a few words in the church and found himself married. A year later he muttered something in his sleep and found himself divorced.

8. A happy marriage is a matter of giving and taking; the husband gives and the wife takes.

9. Son: How much does it cost to get married, Dad? Father: I don't know son, I'm still paying for it.

10. Son: Is it true Dad? I heard that in ancient China, a man doesn't know his wife until he marries her. Father: That happens everywhere, son, EVERYWHERE!

11. Love is one long sweet dream, and marriage is the alarm clock.

12. They say that when a man holds a woman's hand before marriage, it is love; after marriage it is self-defense.

13. When a newly married man looks happy, we know why. But when a 10-year married man looks happy, we wonder why.

14. There was this lover who said that he would go through hell for her. They got married, and now he is going through HELL.

16. When a man steals your wife, there is no better revenge than to let him keep her.

17. Eighty percent of married men cheat in America, the rest cheat in Europe.

18. After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin. They just can't face each other, but they still stay together.

19. Marriage is man and a woman become one. The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.

20. Before marriage, a man yearns for the woman he loves. After the marriage the "Y" becomes silent.

21. I married Miss right; I just didn't know her first name was Always.

22. It's not true that married men live longer than single men, it only seems longer.

23. Losing a wife can be hard. In my case, it was almost impossible.

24. A man was complaining to a friend: I HAD IT ALL-MONEY, A BEAUTIFUL HOUSE, THE LOVE OF A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, THEN POW! IT WAS ALL GONE. WHAT HAPPENED, asked his friend. He says MY WIFE FOUND OUT.

25. WIFE: Let's go out and have some fun tonight. HUSBAND: OK, but if you get home before I do, leave the hallway lighs on.

26. At a cocktail party, one woman said to another: AREN'T YOU WEARING YOUR RING ON THE WRONG FINGER? The other replied, YES, I, AM. I MARRIED THE WRONG MAN.

27. Man is incomplete until he gets married, then he is finished.

28. It doesn't matter how often a married man changes his job, he still ends up with the same boss.

29. A man inserted an ad in the paper - WIFE WANTED. The next day he received a hundred of letters and they all said the same thing - YOU CAN HAVE MINE.

30. When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing - either the car is new or the wife is.

Visiting family

Lately I have gotten to visit much of my family. Seeing myself in them helps me focus on who I am and who I am becoming. Talking to my grandmother about years long past, trying to put myself in her shoes. Same with my mother..

Common Travel Myths

Unraveling Common Travel Myths

• If you use your cellphone, the plane will crash.
• Cruise ships are all-inclusive.
• If you rent a car with a credit card, you don’t need additional insurance.
• Taking the train in Europe is cheaper than flying.
• Recirculated cabin air on planes will make you sick.
• X-ray machines at airport security checkpoints can erase your computer’s hard drive.
• Your hotel card key can be used to steal your identity.

These are just some of the things many travelers believe to be true. And, in fact, with a couple of qualifications, they are nothing more than the latest batch of travel myths.


• Let’s start with the Blackberry/cell phone myth. Every airline flight attendant makes more or less the same announcement, insisting you turn off your cellphones and Blackberries, blueberries, strawberries and other personal electronic devices because “they interfere with the plane’s navigational systems.” If you ask if it’s a rule, the flight attendant will tell you it’s FAA policy. True or false?

False on both counts. First, the FAA has tested personal electronic devices, including iPods, Gameboys and laptops. Their scientists—for more than 25 years now—have bumped up the RF interference these devices give off, up to 100 times their normal levels, at distances of less than three feet from sensitive cockpit avionics. And guess what? Nothing happened. Nothing has ever happened. So did the FAA make a rule? Or a policy? Not exactly.

Under the current federal air regulations, the FAA simply states that it was unable to prove any connection or link between operating these devices and airplane system interference. But it hasn’t made a rule; it's left to each individual airline to set policy. So, if you insist on ignoring the flight attendant by using your Blackberry, you may be in violation of an airline’s policy (and subject to arrest for interfering with a flight crew). But no, the plane won’t crash because you were sending emails.

• First-time passengers like to think that “all-inclusive” cruise means you can put your wallet away for a week. True or False?

Keep your wallet with you. Not long ago, what you paid for your cruise (exclusive of liquor) was the sum total of expenditures. Not anymore. Think of cruise ships today as multiple floating revenue centers. Some cruise lines are now charging a flat fee for unlimited soda, and even a wine-and-dine deal that includes wine or champagne with your dinner (about $125 for a seven-day cruise). But the key to cruise ship profitability can be summed up in two words: onboard revenue. A new rule of thumb for budgeting your next cruise: Take the basic cruise fare and multiply it by 1.75 per person.

• Oops, you just backed into a parking meter. Not to worry, your personal auto insurance covers damages to your rental. True or False?

The answer in most cases is true, but with a big warning from us. Credit card companies promote their promise to cover your insurance if you rent a car using their card. As a result, a number of unsuspecting renters who don’t own a car—and thus don’t have their own insurance—think they are covered by their card. Not so. Almost all credit card companies offer something called “secondary insurance,” which only kicks in when you’ve exhausted all the limits of your primary policy. And if you don’t have a primary policy, then you are not covered at all. Even if you are covered, check your policy limits. If the car you own (for which you pay personal insurance) is only worth $5,000 and you total a car worth $20,000, you’re out $15,000.

• Trains are the way to go within Europe if you want to save money. True or False?

Definitely false. While I have always been in love with trains, and I think back fondly to my days using a student Eurail Pass, the dollars-and-sense truth today is that trains are not economical alternatives to air travel. Low-cost European airlines are now cheaper than intra-European train travel. On Ryanair, an off-season round-trip flight from Rome to Frankfurt can be as low as $90. By comparison, a point-to-point train ticket from Rome to Frankfurt starts at $326 each way and takes about 12 hours of travel time.

• Many travelers contend that the way cabin air is circulated makes the plane a prime breeding ground for colds and flu viruses. True or False?

In my experience, the answer is a qualified true, but there is no scientific proof. First, the cabin air: Modern jet planes were designed to bring in air from the outside at high altitude. In theory, the extremely cold air (about 40 to 60 degrees below zero) is then heated by the aircraft engines and circulated into the cabin, purging the old air. But there’s a problem. This procedure costs fuel and fuel costs money, so many airlines simply recirculate the air already onboard the cabin, bringing in a very small amount of new air. So you may well argue correctly that if the person in seat 2B has the flu, you’ll be breathing his air back in 35E. But to date, no definitive scientific studies have proven that allegation. Still, my advice is to hydrate yourself while on the plane, wash your hands often and turn off the air vent over your head.


Myth: Your plastic hotel key card can be used to steal your identity and credit card account information.

False: Simply put, hotels do not put your personal information on the card. At the most, they will encode the room number and activation date.


Source: http://travel.yahoo.com/p-interests-22269573;_ylc=X3oDMTIwOW1uY3B2BFNlYwNmcC10b2RheW1vZARTbGsDdHJhdmVsbXl0aHMtMjAwOC0wMy0xNARfUwMyNzE2MTQ5BF9zAzI3MTk0ODE-

Who I am and my ideal partner

This is who I am. Love me or hate me.

ABOUT ME:
PROS: grateful, intelligent, self-aware, honest, likes dogs and cats, good in bed, happy, newly found zest for life, pretty, loves Costa Rica, old soul, enjoys reading, bisexual, adventurous, confident, free and living day by day, non-smoker, motivated, romantic, loyal friend, exhibitionist, smiles and laughs easily, spiritual, realist, motherly, submissive, likes cross-dressers, lifetime student, kinky, logical, athletic, reliable, liberal yet conservative, loves every aspect of sex, open-minded, generous, into computers, loving, trustworthy, can vibrate every part of my body, 420, optimistic, awesome boobs, Dominant, enlightened, independent, girly, children-free, thoughtful, sober, thinks outside the box, spontaneous, one-of-a-kind, tenacious, ex-pat mentality, good dancer, goddess, fair, helps friends move, likes sports...

CONS: addictive personality, not organized, think I know it all, sleep 10+ hours per day, high maintenence, clumsy, princess, difficulty being monogamous, irresponsible at times, talks too fast and too much, airhead, ADD/OCD, (bipolar?)




My Ideal Partner:
Has these qualities: honest, reliable, responsible, good-in-bed, funny, makes me laugh, we can talk about anything, knows and likes the true me, treats me as an equal, mental/physical/financial/emotional support, always takes my feelings into consideration, loving, has zest for life, is my best friend, likes to travel, ex-pat mentality, helps me better myself, cuddles, likes cats/dogs, spontaneous, genius intelligence, into computers, likes to learn, teaches me, athletic, includes me, confident, same political beliefs, makes me feel loved, high sex drive, motivated, puts me in my place, can build and repair things, acts like a man and treats me like a lady, worldly, smart in ways I'm not, takes chances, family values, listens to me, shares hopes and dreams, gentleman,

NOT these qualities: dishonest, lies, insensitive, violent, scares me, makes me feel bad about myself, drug addiction, alcoholic, disrespectful,

To remove Candida

Treatment Protocol to remove the Candida

(1) An Anti-candida diet - Cut out all of the following: -

sugar, all types: brown, white, syrup, molasses, honey, fructose, lactose, maltose, dextrose etc. Check all tins and packets,
yeast products: bread, pizza, buns, breadcrumbs, marmite, Oxo, Bovril, Bisto, gravy mix etc. flavoured foods i.e. crisps and foods containing citric acid.
Refined grains, white flour products, cakes, biscuit, pasta, cornflour, cereals etc. all prepared breakfast cereals except Shredded Wheat and purpose made options like Kashi
cured and smoked products: bacon, meats, kippers etc.
fermented products, vinegar, pickles, chutney, soya sauce, alcohol
tea, coffee, ovaltine, chocolate, etc and all malted products
cows milk, cheese cream except yoghurt and cottage cheese
fruit, fresh, juice or dried (some fresh fruit can be added after three weeks under the direction of your therapist)
mushrooms
peanuts and peanut products
Enjoy the following foods:-
Onions and garlic,
Fresh vegetables and their juices (beware of carrot juice it contains a lot of sugar) Rainbow salads are good,
Rice cakes, oat cakes (unmalted) ,Ryvita, sesame and original only,
soya milks, butter, cottage cheese and yoghurt.
herbs, mild spices,
freshly cracked nuts, seeds
water, fruit and herb teas
cold pressed oils
brown rice and flours, use for cakes and pastry etc.
oats (porridge makes an excellent breakfast – make with water and serve with nuts, seeds and yoghurt)
meats, unprocessed preferably organic or free-range
fish preferably unprocessed, oily fish is best
eggs, lentils, peas and beans


(2) To kill the yeast:-
Caprylic acid or mycropryl (natural remedy from coconuts - kills candida, available from our main site www.junglesale.com)

Nystatin - anti fungal drug (available on prescription)
Garlic treatment - eat a fresh clove raw, can be washed down with milk, water or olive oil - three times a day with or after food
Biotin (inhibits candida)

To replace important nutrients
Take a good multi vitamin and mineral, vitamin C and any other nutrients prescribed by your therapist. At this stage chromium should help to control blood sugar.

To re-colonise the gut
Take probiotics - Lactobacillus acidophillus, bifidus
FOS -fructo oligo saccherides
Eat natural yogurt daily

To treat the genito-urinary tract
Douching with either:
fresh aloe vera juice
propolis tincture
garlic water (crush a clove in water - strain)
insert : yoghurt
aloe vera jelly

To repair the Intestine
Avoid foods that you may be sensitive to. Cow’s milk and milk products and wheat are the most likely here. To reduce the strain on the immune system and to allow the maximum absorption of the nutrients you are advised to combine your foods and to rotate them. A simple explanation of food combining is not to eat proteins and carbohydrates at the same meal because they are digested in different acidic environments. A rotation diet works on the principle that it takes five days for traces of a food to be removed from the body. Eating a food type only every five days means that:

* the immune system has a chance to recover by not being subjected to the same allergens everyday.
* when food is re-introduced after five days an adverse re-action will indicate that your body is intolerant to that substance.
* Eat plenty of fresh vegetables, organic if possible to provide essential nutrients and antioxidants to repair the immune system and fibre to help repair the digestive system.

Source: http://www.candidadiet.com/treatment/treatment_diet.shtml

Writing from an internet cafe in Costa Rica

Having a great time here. Making friends. Learning my way around. Wish I could update with photos, maybe when I get back. :)

By the way, if you ever find yourself in Costa Rica and need a cell phone, one of my friends has a rental company.

I am a Bad American

I am your worst nightmare. I am a BAD American.
I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some mid level governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican!

I'm in touch with my feelings and I like it that way, damn it!

I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer, it makes you a smart American.

I think being a minority does not make you noble or victimized, and does not entitle you to anything.

I'm not in touch with my feelings and I like it that way, damn it!

I believe no one ever died because of something Ozzy Osbourne, Ice-T or Marilyn Manson sang.

I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer.

I believe it's called the Boy Scouts for a reason.

I don't think being a minority makes you noble or victimized.

I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, you'd better do it in English.

I don't use the excuse "it's for the children" as a shield for unpopular opinions or actions.

I think fireworks should be legal on the 4th of July.

I think that being a student doesn't give you any more enlightenment than working at Blockbuster. In fact, if your parents are footing the bill to put your pansy ass through 4 years plus, of college, you haven't begun to be enlightened.

I believe everyone has a right to pray to his or her God when and where they want to.

My heroes are John Wayne, Babe Ruth, Roy Rogers, and whoever canceled Jerry Springer.

I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor.

I know wrestling is fake and I don't waste my time arguing about it.

I think global warming is a big lie. Where are all those experts now, when I'm freezing my ass off during these long winters and paying, paying, paying?

I've never owned a slave, or was a slave, I didn't wander forty years In the desert after getting chased out of Egypt. I haven't burned any witches or been persecuted by the Turks and neither have you! So, shut-the-Hell-up already.

I want to know which church is it exactly where the Reverend Jesse Jackson practices, where he gets his money, and why he is always part of the problem and not the solution. Can I get an AMEN on that one?

I think the cops have every right to shoot your sorry ass if you're running from them.

I also think they have the right to pull your ass over if you're breaking the law, regardless of what color you are.

I think if you are too stupid to know how a ballot works, I don't want you deciding who should be running the most powerful nation in the world for the next four years.

I dislike those people standing in the intersections trying to sell me crap or trying to guilt me into making "donations" to their cause.
I believe that it doesn't take a village to raise a child, it takes two parents.

And what is going on with gas prices... Again?

I believe 'illegal' is illegal no matter what the lawyers think.

I believe the American flag should be the only one allowed in AMERICA !

If this makes me a BAD American, then yes, I'm a BAD American.

If you are a BAD American too, please forward this to everyone you know.
We want our country back!

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Monkey

Tonight I may go to a fetish event. Tomorrow I'm off to Costa Rica for a "Fantasy Island" adventure! :)

If I could offer you one piece of advice...(again)

Reply to: pers-566416727@craigslist.org
Date: 2008-02-07, 3:33PM MST

Now that the holidays are over, I thought you might like to read this again and maybe snag yourself a fun Valentine's day date... Guys, If nothing else, at least read this so that maybe one day it'll pop back up in your brains and you'll take what I have to say to heart. Ideally, you'll all stop to think about my words and maybe even some of you will finally take some action.

Let me start by saying that, yes, we women have taken many matters into our own hands. We've come a long way. Education is valued so that we may maintain our independence. Careers are valued because of the desire to possibly make a difference in the world. Along the way, we've learned how to be pretty self-sufficient.

We own our own houses.

We manage to buy houses (and cars, and major appliances, and...) on our own.

We take care of those 'major' purchases on our own.

We are active.

We are intelligent.

We are educated.

We lead our own lives.

And, much, much more.

However, with that being said, we DESPERATELY desire for you to come approach us. We love for you to say hi, or nod hello, or just simply acknowledge we're alive with a knowing glance. Many of us are not going to just turn our backs and ignore you (I say many because there are some who think that this is okay. Women, this is for you: It is NOT okay to treat someone this way.)

We want to be pursued. We want to be chased and romanced. We ABSOLUTELY want you to treat us like a lady and use your best manners when taking us out.

Heck, we want you to ask us out already!

Let me end this rambling by saying this: If there's a gal you're thinking about who has generated SOME spark of interest in you, ask her on a date. Take her out. Let her feel special because, I guarantee you, she will do the same for you in return if things work out (and I'm not getting vulgar here). Even if things don't go beyond that date, you've at least made someone's day by making them feel special and you've created good karma for yourself.

It's time to start taking a hold of the reigns again. Come on...you know you want to!

Oh, sorry, one more thing: If she decides to make that first move, don't freak and worry that your masculinity is at risk. Also, just because she approaches you doesn't mean you're off the hook as far as 'being a man' is concerned. If you've forgotten already, reread the above. :)


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My future

Trying to decide what should be in my future.. Where should I live? What shall I do for income?

Britney

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/23044877#23044877

The Law of Detachment

The Law of Detachment ... In detachment lies the wisdom of uncertainty . . . in the wisdom of uncertainty lies the freedom from our past, from the known, which is the prison of past conditioning. And in our willingness to step into the unknown, the field of all possibilities, we surrender ourselves to the creative mind that orchestrates the dance of the universe.

I will put the Law of Detachment into effect by making a commitment to take the following steps:

1.Today I will commit myself to detachment. I will allow myself and those around me the freedom to be as they are. I will not rigidly impose my idea of how things should be. I will not force solutions on problems, thereby creating new problems. I will participate in everything with detached involvement.

2. Today I will factor in uncertainty as an essential ingredient of my experience. In my willingness to accept uncertainty, solutions will spontaneously emerge out of the problem, out of the confusion, order and chaos. The more uncertain things seem to be, the more secure I will feel, because uncertainty is my path to freedom. Through the wisdom of uncertainty, I will find my security.

3. I will step into the field of all possibilities and anticipate the excitement that can occur when I remain open to an infinity of choices. When I step into the field of all possibilities, I will experience all the fun, adventure, magic and mystery of life.


"You and I are essentially infinite choice-makers. In every moment of our existence, we are in that field of all possibilities where we have access to an infinity of choices." -- Deepak Chopra


The Law of Detachment -- Deepak Chopra

28 Reasons Why Cookie Dough Is Better Than A Penis :)

(I prefer chocolate chip and oatmeal raisin, by the way :)

1. It's enjoyable hard or soft.
2. It makes a mess, too --- but it tastes better.
3. It doesn't mind if you take your anger out on it.
4. You always want to swallow.
5. It won't complain if you share it with friends.
6. It's "quick and convenient".
7. You can enjoy it more than once.
8. It comes already protectively wrapped.
9. You can make it as large as you want.
10. If you don't finish it, you can save it for later.
11. It's easier to get the kind you want.
12. You can comparison-shop.
13. You know what the extra weight is from.
14. You can put it away when you've had enough.
15. You know yours has never been eaten before.
16. It won't complain if you chew on it.
17. It comes chocolate flavored.
18. You always know when to get rid of it.
19. You can return it --- satisfaction is guaranteed.
20. It's always ready to go.
21. You won't get arrested if you eat it in public.
22. You don't have to change the sheets if you eat it in bed.
23. It won't wake you up because it's hard.
24. It won't get jealous if you pick up another one.
25. You can tell your friends how much you've eaten without sounding like you're bragging.
26. It is very pliable.
27. It's easy to pick up.
28. It never has an insecurity problem with its size.

Updated Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion 66% Stability 60% Orderliness 46% Accommodation 43% Interdependence 56% Intellectual 70% Mystical 83% Artistic 56% Religious 83% Hedonism 30% Materialism 43% Narcissism 56% Adventurousness 90% Work ethic 70% Self absorbed 63% Conflict seeking 43% Need to dominate 63% Romantic 90% Avoidant 56% Anti-authority 43% Wealth 56% Dependency 70% Change averse 43% Cautiousness 76% Individuality 43% Sexuality 70% Peter pan complex 70% Physical security 90% Physical Fitness 44% Histrionic 76% Paranoia 76% Vanity 70% Hypersensitivity 70% Indie 58%

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Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:
social, outgoing, worry free, optimistic, upbeat, tough, likes large parties, makes friends easily, rarely irritated, open, enjoys leadership, trusting, dominant, thrill seeker, strong, does not like to be alone, assertive, mind over heart, confident, controlling, feels desirable, likes the spotlight, loves food, social chameleon, hard working, concerned about others



In a few weeks I'll be going back to Costa Rica. This time I'm enrolling in Spanish school. I can't wait! :-)

INTERNATIONAL THINKING AT ITS BEST!

What is the truest definition of Globalization?

Answer: Princess Diana's death.

Question: How come?

Answer: An English princess

with an Egyptian boyfriend

crashes in a French tunnel,

driving a German car

with a Dutch engine,

driven by a Belgian who was drunk

on Scottish whisky, (check the bottle before you change the spelling)

followed closely by Italian Paparazzi,

on Japanese motorcycles;

treated by an American doctor,

using Brazilian medicines.

This is sent to you by an American,

using Bill Gate's technology,

and you're probably reading this on your computer,

that use Taiwanese chips,

and a Korean monitor,

assembled by Bangladeshi workers

in a Singapore plant,

transported by Indian lorry-drivers,

hijacked by Indonesians,

unloaded by Sicilian longshoremen,

and trucked to you by Mexican illegal's....

That, my friends, is Globalization

Still not drinking. :-)

Pretty proud of myself, too! Made it through New Year's Eve, AVN, and Internext -- all drinking events.

Marijuana vending machine in LA....is this city great or what?

I miss Fantasy Island

Mass. clinic launches fertility test that measures egg supply

Mass. clinic launches fertility test that measures egg supply
Boston Business Journal
Tuesday, January 22, 2008 - 9:32 AM EST



A Massachusetts clinic claims it will be the first in the northeast to offer a fertility test that measures how many eggs a woman has.

Fertility center Boston IVF of Waltham, Mass., said on Tuesday that it will begin to sell Repromedix's Plan Ahead test, a blood test that uses a variety of elements to measure a woman's egg supply. The test is intended to help women who are planning to have children after their late twenties, by measuring three ovary-related hormones.

A woman's ability to have children by natural conception depends on having enough eggs, a supply of which declines as a woman ages.

Repromedix is also Massachusetts-based; Its headquarters are in Woburn.

Boston IVF is one of a select number of fertility centers who will offer the $350 test. It's expected to launch in major markets through 2008.


Source: http://www.bizjournals.com/boston/stories/2008/01/21/daily17.html

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